Love me like you used to

Part 22

JOSH'S POV

"OMG ELLEIGH! ELLEIGH ARE YOU OKAY?" i asked though i dont think she could hear me. I held her in my arms and rubbed her back. I looked over at he with worried eyes until her heartbeat slowed down.

"Elleigh what was that?" i asked and she shook her head i went to get a drink for her and filled it with some water and she gulped it down, "did you just have an anxiety attack?" i asked slowly and she nodded. I pulled her into my arms as she buried her head in my chest while slowly rocking back and fourth.

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ELLEIGH'S POV

"NO STOP JOSH! YOUR TWISTING MY WORDS I DIDNT EVEN SAY THAT" i screamed at Josh

"IM NOT TWISTING YOUR WORDS IM SAYING EXACTLY WHAT YOU SAID" Josh yelled back

"YOU COMPLETELY CHANGED EVERYTHING I SAID"

"NO IM NOT! YOUR THE ONE HAVING REGRETS!

"IM NOT HAVING REGRETS OMG! HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU!!

We had been arguing pver half an hour, luckily Josh's parents weren't in to see this but if im being honest i can't even remember what weare arguing about, now we are jus yelling at eachother.

"well you obviouskly arn't listening to me.." Josh lowered his voice

"look.. i dont want to fight Josh" i said rubbing my temples

"why not?" Josh challenged

"because who knows how much longer you have, and what if you not here anymore after the argument. so the last thing you rememebered was me yelling at you, id never forgive myself, look i love you and i just want to spend what i ahve left with you"

"im sorry" he sighed, and i did the same

"im sorry too" i said hugging him tightly

"what were we even arguing about?" he asked

"i haveno idea" i chuckled

"lets not fight" Josh said kissing my head

"yeah thats a good idea"

"well its your birthday tomorrow anyway so i cant have you waking up hating me on your birthday"

"you remembered?!"

"of course i did!" Josh said

"now lets go back to your house before it gets dark" josh pointed out

*its now early morning*

"ELLEIGH! WAKE UP, WAKE UP" Josh said poking my cheek

"no, go away" i groaned

"But its your birthday!" I shot out of bed completely forgetting my birthday and ran downstairs

"Your 18 today!" Josh said and i beamed at him

"are you ready for the best birthday breakfast of your life?"

" if it is burnt cookies or waffles ... i swear"

"nope i learned something.." Josh said smirking

"from where?" i asked

"your mum"  (innuendo right there^)

"you cook with my mum?"

"well yeah all the time i mean this might aswell be my home, i spend more time here than i do over at my house"

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"this isnt my mum's reciepe, this is way better!" i said sinking my teeth into a cinnamon roll

"dont tell your mum that" Josh laughed

"dont tell your mum what?" Elleigh mum asked while grabbing a cinnamon roll "happy birthday Elleigh"

"thank you mum" i said hugging her

"okay i am going to get changed and then we are off" i said and Josh furrowed his eyebrows

"where are we going" josh asked

"The Matt's house where we are all meeting up, i havent seen them all in ages!"

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Josh laughed as he sprayed silly string all over Max and Max went to sit on the couch were Chris was, who had gotten sprayed right at the start of the game. We were palying 'silly string tag' if you got sprayed you were out.

"this is like the fcking hunger games!" i shouted and Max chuckled. Chris didnt respond because he was angry that he got out by a girl. I heard the other 3 comingout from the door so i stood near the window waiting so i could spray them. Matt came out first along with Dan and i got them both out. Sophie, Alexis, Zoe and Skye slowly walked over to the couch because im assuming |Josh got them all out so it was agianst me and Josh. I heard him coming so i got ready to spray him..

As soon as he saw me he pointed his can at me..

"you may be my wonderful girlfriend, but ill still shoot you" he threatened

" i know" as i began to press the button i got hit with a fluorescent blue substance hitting my stomach " aww,come on" i whined and Josh shouted in victory.

AS the game finished we all had something to eat and we explainedeverything what is happening to Sophie and everyone hoping they will understand. It was about 9pm so me and Josh headed back to my house

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JOSH'S POV

"um Elleigh, i have to go" i said getting out of bed only to be pulled back in

"no you dont." elleigh said

"yes i do"

"no you dont"

"but your parents will be angry" i said even though i knew full well that we would be happy for me to stop over

"no they wont " she laughed " why are you in such a hurry?" she asked, i sighed

" because i dont know when im going to die" i sighed and she suddenly knew why

"you dont want me to wake up and find you dead?" Elleigh clarified and i nodded " i want to be there when you die though" she said and i wrapped my arm around her shoulder

"i love you, you know that right?" i asked and she giggled and nodded

"look this is the last time im ever going to do this" i pointed out and she frowned

" i know" she said tonelessly, they were sleeping on the trampoline agian just like they did at the huge sleepover

"you know what? ill give you permission to keep this tramp when i die" she nodded. Elleigh used to cringe at any world related to death but now its become normal to her.

"thanks! ill just sleep on the trampevery single night" she said, i laughed

"good!" i found her hand in the dark and intertwined fingers. "look! a shooting star, make a wish" i said

We both closed our eyes for a few seconds wishing things that wouldnt come true because of a star.

"what did you wish for" i asked Elleigh, she laughed

ELLEIGH'S POV

"i cant tell you!" i exclaimed "it wont come true"

"aww pleasee, ill tell you mine?"

"nope." i shook my head. I would of told him if i wasnt embarrased to say it. I had wished for him to live, even though it was impossible because he could die any day now.

"last chance?" he asked hopefully

"im not taking it" i said firmly and he laughed

"okay" Josh said pulling my body close to his and kissing my cheek. "goodnight, i love you" He said as a smile formed on my face

"i love you too"