Him...( an Aphmau fanfic about Garrance, Zanevis and Vylante)

Chapter 40: i hate you But i love you

Zane's PoV

"I love you too..." I whispered back

I was scared, scared to let those words out after so long. After so long of loving him.

I didn't know what to do or even say next.

What was I supposed to say?

I sat on the floor hugging Travis tightly.

A few months ago I hated him and now....I love him.

I love him so much and yet....I still don't know the actual meaning of love.

I still don't know how to love or why I love him, I just do.

Can I even love if I don't know what it is?

Maybe I'm not ready...

"Zane..." Travis whispered in my ear

I remained silent, waiting for him to speak.

Travis let go of me, he moved his hands and cupped them around my face.

My face burned, and I couldn't tell wether that was  a good thing or not.

I only burned more when he started leaning closer to me.

Our lips were about an inch away before he stopped.

"Can I?" He asked

I froze, thinking about it for a sec before nodding my head.

He smiled then moved in closer and closer, until our lips finally met.

I closed my eyes tightly, as I felt his soft lips on mine.

I was scared, this was my first kiss.

What will happen after this?

After a while he pulled away.

I kept my eyes tightly shut, not wanting to look at him after what had just happened.

"Zane," he said

"Yeah," I whispered, with my eyes still shut

"Open your eyes," he said

I shook my head.

I again felt his had cup around my face.

"Why?" He asked, he spoke In a soft voice which calmed me instantly

"I -I'm scared," I said, quietly

"What are you scared about?" He asked

"Everything," i said

"It'll be ok, I promise," he reassured

"A-are you sure?" I asked

"Yes," he said

Slowly, I opened my eyes to look at Travis.

Tears formed in the corners of my eyes, as I saw his smile.

I hate it, I hate that he makes me feel this way.

But deep down I love him...

I love everything about him and that's the part I hate.

I hate that I love him.

Travis wiped away my tears, gently.

Then i felt my self begin to cry.

I cried it all out while Travis sat there hugging me, comforting me.

I loved it...

I love him...

A/n: I might end this book here I don't really know yet