Me Without You

Facing Cheol

Confessing to Joshua wasn't hard at all, but confessing to Cheol felt difficult. Jeonghan had already made plans to meet with SEVENTEEN's leader and would take the opportunity to let him know how he felt.

It was always easy to talk to S.Coups, and it's not like he was a strict leader or a bad friend. But Jeonghan and Cheol had a past. Somedays it seemed like he had gotten over it, other days it's seemed like his crush had never gone away.

Once upon a time, Seungcheol would have dropped everything for him. When SEVENTEEN first debuted, they were inseparable; Most of the time it was Joshua, Cheol, and himself, but on one particular day, Joshua had to stay after practice.

Jeonghan and Cheol ran home in the rain, splashing through puddles of muddy water all the way to the dorms. As they entered the empty home, they stripped off each piece of clothing, ending up in nothing but boxers. Jeonghan slapped Cheol's undressed body with wet clothing as they chased each other around the room.

The sounds of Jeonghan's giggles, made Seungcheol's heart race; And when their skin would touch, it felt like his heart was doing back flips. He wondered why he felt this way, why Jeonghan awakened all these feelings inside him. Once they were fully dressed, the pair decided to surprise the members with dinner. They set out to make Ramen, Cheol in charge of most of the cooking because Jeonghan was capable of burning water.

As they worked diligently, a rag fell onto the ground and both boy's leaned over to pick it up. And just like in those sappy movies they were met face to face with each other. Seungcheol leaned in for the kiss, but Jeonghan broke out in laughter.

At first he didn't believe Seungcheol was serious, the close encounter made him nervous. But he knew the feeling of wanting to kiss someone, he had felt it that day in the closet with Mingyu. He felt horrible that he couldn't feel it for Cheol who deserved love too, but Jeonghan's heart was already somewhere else. After that, Seungcheol was less confident when flirting with Yoon Jeonghan.

Jeonghan knew that Cheol's feelings were hurting him and one drunken night he agreed to a kiss. But he had promised Jeonghan and himself that after that kiss he would let him go. He would put his feelings aside and they would just be best friends like always.

It was never spoken of again, so Jeonghan never really knew if S.Coups was over him. The last thing Jeonghan wanted to do was open up old wounds.