Love is Illogial - Why do I find my lab assistant cute?

Ria's Feelings

I continued to stare at the date on my phone. In two days time, Senku returns from America following his year long mission and my heart goes up a beat with each passing day. It's 5am and I'm back in the Ishigami household but it doesn't feel like home without Senku here beside me. Gah, I sound like a love sick puppy! I threw my phone down, lying back down and covering my head with the duvet. A year ago I finally admitted I love him and to this day, I am still awaiting his response. I am the biggest moron in the world. I have been asked out by several of the guys in my course but couldn't bring myself to go out with them. I mean, shouldn't I at least have the chance to experience a real chance of first love. Oh science, I'm sounding desperate. "Ri-ri!" I jumped up, hearing my door open, a tired Lillian and over active Suika at my door. "She had the feeling you would be awake," Lillian yawned, as Suika jumped onto my bed, giving me a big hug. "Only five days until Christmas and only two until Senku comes back. You must be full of emotion." 

I nodded, Suika nuzzling into my neck. "I've barely slept these pass couple of weeks," I sighed patting my surrogate sister's head.  "Am i stupid for what I did?" 

Lillian shuck her head, taking a seat at the end of the bed. "You did something even Senku couldn't do," She leant forward giving me a kiss on my forehead. "You admitted your feelings and even understood what they meant. I can see what Senku sees in you." 

I couldn't help but smile at the idea I have qualities Senku might admire. "Why don't we go downstairs and watch Christmas movies?" I asked, causing Suika to cheer as she leapt off the bed. "Well, she certainly is a morning person." 

"I'm not sure who she get's it off," Lillian laughed, grabbing hold of my hand. "Come on. Your grandmother sent her famous hot chocolate blend and I might have brought some marshmallows and whipped cream." 

"How could I say no?" I laughed throwing the duvet off and Lillian and I walked downstairs hand in hand. 

Before I knew it, it was 10:30 and Yuzuriha had joined in our movie marathon, apparently with an early Christmas present for me. Lillian went to put Sukia down for a nap and Byakuya was out doing last minute Christmas shopping, Yuzuriha and I was left to discuss things. She had the biggest smile on her face as she handed me her latest sketchbook. I have to say, i was in awe at ever dress she designed. Truly living in Tokyo had given her inspiration. Then I turned to the last page and Yuzuriha gave a cute laugh. It was what appeared to be a wedding dress and veil. "This is your wedding dress," Yuzuriha smiled brightly and I couldn't help but blush. "I'm certain when Senku comes back, you'll be begging me to start making this." 

I couldnt bring out the words. "Oh, this certainly would get any man, even one as cold as Senku, crying at the end of the isle," I let out an eep, having not noticed Byakuya had returned and was leaning over my shoulder. "I would love to give you away wearing something that beautiful. Well done Yuzuriha." 

"Why thank you," Yuzuriha blushed with a sweet smile attached. 

I can't help but think everyone else has more faith in Senku then I do. Yuzuriha tore out the page, handing it to me in a small clear file that was decorated in stars before she had to leave to met Taiju. Bakyuya took her seat, wrapping and arm around my shoulders. "Are you that scared of his answer?" He asked clearly worried about me. "Beside myself, I know you know Senku better then anyone. In fact, you might know more then me." 

"Do I?" I asked, still staring at the file. "He mentioned having illogical feelings, what does that really mean to Senku? I mean, is it the same as love in his eyes. This is the man who never looked twice at anything not science related." 

"Yes, but you were science related," He laughed. "You were an anomaly he couldn't explain and he did what Senku does best, he took the scientific approached and I believe that when he sees you next, he'll know the answer he was looking for." 

I smiled, leaning into the touch. This feels nostalgic, like when my dad would hold me after I cried. All these feelings I have, I just wish Senku was here to share them. Whether he feels the same, or not.