ricky and nini's realizations

chapter 57

ricky's pov

i get through my school day feeling uneasy the whole entire time. i blew off lunch telling nini that i had to go see my math teacher because i knew she would know something was up. my stomach was hurting from being so anxious, so i sat in the theater on my phone until time for my next class. eventually the day was over, so i met nini in the parking lot at her car. she smiles sweetly when her eyes meet mine as she's walking to me. she unlocks the car from a distance seeing that i'm there. i get in and wait for the remaining few seconds until she gets in too. "hi," she smiles sweetly when she opens the drivers side door after throwing her bag into the back. "hey," i say with a smile too. my hand reaches for hers as soon as she rests it on her leg as we wait for the few cars in front of us to clear out so she can move out of her parking spot. "how was your day. i feel like i barely saw you today," she comments, but doesn't act as though she suspects anything. "it was fine. just boring school," i say. she rolls her eyes a little bit at that, but keeps her smile. she looks forward seeing that she had a chance to pull out of her spot before more traffic came letting go of my hand to do so. my hand doesn't break contact with her though because i place it back onto her leg needing to be connected to her. she reaches the street we live on, "hey nins. can you drop me at home?" i request knowing that my dad is waiting. "yeah sure," she replies not thinking anything of it either. i just look at her admiring her for a moment before i look away from her hoping she didn't feel my eyes on her. she pulls into my driveway and puts the car in park. i unplug my phone from the aux about to exit the car as i turn to the door handle. as i'm about to pull on it, i feel nini's hand on my shoulder. i turn my head around to look at her. she doesn't say anything as i look to her for her to say something. instead her eyes follow where her hand goes. it travels from my shoulder up my neck, causing goose bumps to raise on my skin, and finally places her hand on my forehead soothingly brushing back my curls. i don't move as i relax into the calm feeling she's giving me, even though i don't know why she's doing it. she leans her whole body back against her seat as her head rests against the headrest just watching her hand move over me. we're both quiet while i just watch her face while following her eye movements. after a moment, i take my hand off of the door handle from her capturing my full attention as i just fall into this feeling she's giving me. she still hasn't met my gaze, but begins to talk softly, "what have you been thinking about all day?" she asks but doesn't push an answer out of me. i slump into my seat realizing that she knows i skipped out on lunch with a fake excuse and she's seen right through me today. which makes my heart buzz, but i didn't want to throw more of my emotions onto her. "my mom left again and i'm just done with it. but i'm okay. really," i back up my statement. i expect her to give me a knowing look that would press more words out of me, but she doesn't. it surprised me and makes me realize just how much she understands me. "i know you're okay," she says bringing her hand down to my cheek stroking it with her thumb. her actions make me reach forward to grab her leg. i was resting my one hand on her leg when i found a distraction from my thoughts in one of the rips on her jeans twirling some of the string around my fingers. i snuggle my cheek into her hand no longer rushing to get inside. she lets me sit in silence she's giving me making me the most peaceful i'd felt all day. i start to realize that this was her goal the whole time when she stopped me from getting out of the car, to let me have a moment of peace with everything going on at home. i take a deep breath in and out before breaking the silence she's letting me sit in, "my dad told me this morning that he needs to talk to me about her. and i just know it's bad," i say the last part more stressfully starting to work myself up a little. she notices and pushes her fingers back into my hair while continuing the movement. "whatever the news is. i know you'll get through it. plus you have your dad who understands, more than anyone, what you will be feeling. it'll be okay ricky." i listen carefully to all of her words knowing that i can trust what she says and that she's absolutely right. i nod my head agreeing with her. i don't take a second to meet her eyes. i just lean forward and capture her lips. i could tell she wasn't expecting it, but immediately responded to me. my emotions are getting ahead of me and the kisses become more heated with each time i turn my head to capture and release her lips with mine. i feel dizzy from how much i love the way she feels and the intensity of this. her leg moves underneath my hand and before i realize what she's moving to do, she straddles me in my seat without breaking the kiss. my breathing becomes so heavy and winded that i have to pull away from her. she doesn't stop though as she immediately moves to kissing my neck. through my panting breaths, "nini," i say with a groan as i squeeze her waist as close as i can against me. my head tips back against the seat's headrest relishing in how amazing she is. she begins sucking my skin in a certain spot which is so much different than the wet kisses we've placed along each other's skin. it's like my body is in control right now on autopilot and my mind is completely fuzzy. my fingers dig into her hips and she sucks harder while i let out a breathy moan. she moves further towards my ear getting closer to that soft spot as soon as her mouth applies pressure right there my hand flies up into her hair, "nins," i get out with a grunt. i can't take it anymore literally and i forcefully, but still carefully, push her away to slam my lips back onto hers. i feel her hands rake down my chest and i'm losing it. i don't know how one person can be so intoxicating for another. but i will never get enough of her and i wonder how i am in this moment with her right now. she slips her tongue past my lips and we're battling each other for control with our mouths. i'm slowly losing, but i don't wanna stop fighting her. my phone alert goes off signifying i got a text. both of us ignore it until the two minute notification sounds. i place both hands to her cheeks to slowly pull apart from her. my chest rises and falls heavily as my left arm reaches around the cup holders for my phone and my right hands holds onto nini. "did you forget to come straight home? you've been out of school for half an hour. no rush. just making sure you remember i want you home," the text from my dad reads. as i read it, nini holds onto the sides of my shirt at my torso. i quickly type, "i didn't forget." i let go of my phone letting it fall into the cup holder. "i gotta go baby," i say dreading it more than i bet she can imagine. she gives me a look of understanding nodding her head a bit, but all i can look at are her swollen lips. i lean forward latching to them again not wanting to lose the feeling of her. she pulls back from me as i chase her lips. we both look at each other with smiles on our faces. she runs a hand all the way through my hair and stopping at my neck, "call me later okay? you're gonna be okay no matter what your dad has to tell you. and odds are he's going through whatever it is with you," she says holding eye contact with me the whole time. i breathe out against her skin while hugging her with my arms folded around her waist. i begin sliding my  hands from around her waist where they land on her sides, so i slide them down until i reach her hips leaving my finger tips to be just barely or almost touching her butt. i lean up to her ear, "good thing you have tinted windows baby," then slap (more of a tap because there was no force at all) the side of her thigh that meets her hip. "alright bowen," she says and i can only imagine she rolled her eyes at me. she moves off of me and back into her seat. i open open the door and slide my phone into my pocket with my hand on my book bag that's at my feet ready to get out. i look over to her one last time to which she's already sweetly smiling at me while lost in her own thoughts because her eyes took a second to catch mine. i lean across the car to kiss her lips again to say bye as much as i wish i could stay here with her even longer. i peck her lips and she speaks before me, "bye," with a giggle as she sits watching me get out of the car. i close her car door and turn back as i'm walking off to smile at her before i go inside. she shakes her head laughing seeing that she caught me looking at her knowing she was already watching me. i audibly chuckle to myself even though she couldn't hear it then looking down to jiggly my keys until reaching the house key. i hear her car backing out of the driveway, but i don't want her to see me look at her again. so i refrain from taking another glance at her. i brace myself stepping into the house where my dad is waiting holding onto to nini's words and trusting that everything will be okay even if this news is really bad and i'll get through it.