Meant to be

Chapter 16: The heart wants what the heart wants

Shehnaaz waited till Sidharth fell asleep before she rolled over and faced him. She loved watching him, she loved how he was lying so close to her and she loved how he had his leg and arm flung around her. She found herself taking a huge big breath holding it for a few seconds and exhaling deeply, almost hoping the act would rid her of the madness that was dragging her down. The madness of the aura of Sidharth. As much as they had seemingly discussed and agreed that their 'duniya's' were 'alag' and that their connection was guaranteed only till they were in this show and outside will be dealt with later, still she found herself being tugged towards him incredibly. He was everything she never knew she wanted! The way he treated her both with such gentleness and such belongingness. When he called her moti or gadhi it made her feel like she belonged to him and she liked it, she liked belonging to him. She liked that in this whole house she was the only one he unclenched for, 'ungamed' for. She somehow got the feeling that not too many people were allowed to see this side of Sidharth Shukla. When she first met him his personality his aura and the masculinity that oozed out from him intimidated her. She had never known anyone like him, let alone be in such close proximity with anyone like him
And not being so intimate with anyone like him. When with her, he was still all of those things but he somehow has the ability to deconstruct his larger than life personality and dose it out to her in tiny consumable enjoyable chunks. Gawd! What was happening to her. She really needed to divert her attention to Parag, he was an unworthy pursuit and that is exactly what she needed.

"Stop staring at me Shehnaaz, dekh le pyaar vyaar mein Padgh gayee problem ho jayega" Sidharth rasped sexily his voice half sensous half sleepy and his eyes still closed and a smirk on his fac.

Shehnaaz startled and quickly buried her face into his chest "Haye tunay mujhay dara diya! Kyun karta hai aisay yaar. Dekh rahi thi na Chori thodi kar rahi thi! Tu itna Paapi kyun hai'

He drew her in closer and lift her her face with his hand on her chin, opened his eyes lazily and looked deeply at her. He was unable to contain the tug she caused inside of him. He found her so adorable and heartwarming yet frustrating because each of her antic each action of hers was causin his carefully constructed walls to crumble. He had to catch himself before it is too late but for now he decided to enjoy himself "achaaaa yeh sahi hai paap mein karta hoon maanliya lekin yeh sab paap karwaata kaun hai bey, meri nautanki saali, har baar daal peenay ka Mann karta kya karoon abh?" Saying this through gritted teeth he bent down and nipped her lower lip, a little harder than he should have but he really could not contain himself.

"Sssssse aaaah! Sidharth!" She hissed in pain but was also so aroused by him and his need of her. She looked at him in want but had to deal with the little bruise his ministrations had cause "haye lag gaya kuttay, abhi mark aa jayegi...idhar machar bhi nahi hai ke bol sakthi hoon ke machar nay kaata!" She said tentativeky touching her lower lip.

"Haan abhi tere jho special friends hai iss ghar mein toh tu abh unki baasha bol. Voh mujhay aurat, sasuma boltay hain ab th mujay machar bol, sahi hai, chal sab so rahe hain Chalke Dekhte hain kitna lagi hai" he said this and took her hand and scrambled out of bed. Very very perplexed partly because he was guilty of paining her but he weirdly did not regret it, partly because what he said about her special friends though it was in jest, it had started bothering him that everyone would be pandering to Shehnaaz partly because she was fun to be around largely because she was someone who if was convinced would whole heartedly support in the game. He was irritated because her style of playing the game was so different from his. He wanted to make a team and assure them of his support and also be assured of theirs, she was a loose canon who did not believe in alliances simply because no one was worthy of her unstinted support, she decided her stand based on right and wrong perspectives and not people.

As they reached the bathroom area, the light flickered on there and they both looked into the mirror him standing behind her and peering into it. His hands were resting lightly on her shoulder... "Lo ho Gaya siyappa, kya karoon abhi tere paap ka nishaani is!" She asked him half exasperated but half thrilled , strange after a long time she felt like a giddy teenager whose crush just noticed her!
He suddenly felt like he had to ask her if she was ok, sometimes he forgot that they met only a month and more back. Yes agreee this house has accentuated their time spent, he always thought one day spent together in the big boss house was like a whole week spent outside with the person if not more! He quickly commiserated 'baby did it hurt much, sorry Moti much zyaada ho Gaya Shaayad , I don't even know if you enjoy this sort of thing. Tu mujhay roka kar agar tujhay lagta hain ke mein hadh paar kar raha hoon! Pls don't think I am one of those..."