Meant to be

Ch 13 contd...

Shehnaaz shivered in response as she felt Sidharth'a hand slide up her bare back and unclasp her bra...this was a bold
Move from him. One that she found so much of pleasure in and as he caressed her back and heard him profess that he respected her too much to make this a random lust filled make out session, somehow she wished he had not bared open his attraction to her. Because now she would have to be on guard, all these days she did not check herself with him because she was dead certain that a guy like him, with his looks and fame would never even consider her. She knew that he found her cute and amusing, she knew he felt protective towards her and yes because in this house it was slim pickings he was even mildly attracted to her and she allowed for all of it unfiltered only because she knew that all of this came with a certain expiry date. Now this sudden curve in their intimacy scared her, because he was now allowing her to see the intimate and raw side to himself which she was certain he unmasked only for a certain very few and what scared her about it is that she will not be able to now undo this in her mind and have him return back to being just a normal acquaintance.

This was the challenge with her broken yet beautiful self. When she found genuinely she went all out for it but also then starts expecting back on equal
Measure and that always in the past failed her. Except for Shehbaaz no one else gave back as much as she poured into the relationship. Sidharth Shukla in all his glory was a great guy and not a dishonest bone in his body and he was a straight shooter. She sighed deeply just a few hours back with so much of deft he calmly and squarely told her that outside of this house there would be no such familiarity from him, he also told her that both of them were here to play the game. At no point did he see beyond that, she was in a dilemma, she was someone who had already achieved what she had come for and now this new thing with Sidharth would it destroy her? Maybe she should take a step back. As much as it tugged at her heart painfully to pull back she decided that as self protection that was for the best.

She hated herself for it but decided that she from tomorrow onwards pronouncedly spend more time with Paras, as much as she detested him and found him cringe, he reminded her of home and her cousin brothers. At heart beneath all that selfish ambition was a good homely guy but he kept that goodness hidden underneath the rubble of desperate need for fame and fortune. She sighed, untangled herself from Sidharth and was shocked at how bereft she already felt, shifted across to her side , hooked her bra back on and willed herself to sleep.

Sidharth as soon as she moved out of his arms was woken up from the light and comfortable sleep he had fallen into. He woke  up feeling a sense of loss and when it quickly dawned on him that the loss was shehnaaz rolling out of his arms and moving to her side of the bed. He did not want to confront her just yet about what happened. He too was perplexed but strangely not sorry about what happened. He slightly opened her eyes to note that she had hooked her bra back on and settled into sleep properly. He mentally replayed what caused him to do what he did. Ever since their first rift and the subsequent patch up, this girl had managed to revive something in him that was long dead. When he was younger he very easily allowed himself to fall for girls who were seemingly sweet and then he would hope that they would have all those qualities that he found in his mum and sisters. Because of that hope he wrongly expected more out of some of his relationships and it led to a lot of heartbreak. Then As his fame increased he found that people wanted to be seen with him more than live with him. Over time he successfully learnt to feed the flesh and not hurt the heart. After a long long time this girl Shehnaaz had tugged at his heart. He from the word go was so fascinated and enamored with everything about her. She really was not his type, ok if he was honest she was not the type of girls he usually took to bed, she was exactly the type of girl he hoped he would marry, when marriage was an option. He mentally sighed, life and it's ironies! When he was younger and could have married someone like her all the vain vacuous zariwala's came his way...now when he has given up on a future for himself he meets her that too on national television and even if he were to ignore all that she was 13 bloody years younger to him. If he was to look at their entire situation from a third person's perspective he would end up looking like a creep! What was he doing?!!!

He also was starting to take things easily, he needed to buck up at his game. Paras and Mahira were not natural allies and he had to work hard to keep them busy. His whole strategy was to keep Paras close and use him to do his bidding and also be around them so that they would not turn on him. He detested Mahira but also knew that to reel Paras in he will have to tolerate her. She was too young and too arrogant and could not stand the fact that someone like a shehnaaz had upstaged her. He actually would have respected her more had she not so easily flipped to liking him after all that venom, she knew he did it because she sensed that here could rule the roost more than she could on the other side.

The challenge was for him to do all of this without losing his mind or honesty. He was also so conflicted about shehnaaz, the truth was she would never be a part of his game strategy not for or against but the thing was she was a wild canon. The very unpredictable nature of hers that made him go crazy about her also drove him crazy in the game. Again life and it's bloody irony, if he was not in the game he would have applauded her brazen game strategy but here and now for someone who was in it to win it she posed a challenge. A challenge that he could not tackle with his usual and aggressive way!

The morning music blared, shehnaaz and sidharth looked at each other shy, awkward yet with attraction, she smiled at him and rolled out of bed to dance! There was a strange buzz between them like they could not avoid each other but also knew that the more they drew towards each other the more they would almost combust. The whole morning was spent in a push and pull dance between them, their rhythm was strangely off and strangely so on.

At one point they found themselves alone in the bathroom area, Sidharth was lying down on the bed and was watching when was get ready after her bath. His eyes shone with affection and attraction towards her, she sat in front of the mirror doing or atleast trying to do her make up and sidharth sat leaned into her his knees on either side of the poof cushion she was sat on. He inhaled her Fragrance and rasped "you always smell so good baby!" She shuddered because it was all just so intimate and she decided that before she pulled back from him she deserved a little treat so she slowly turned her head and willed him to back off which he did not, he continued to pierce her souls through her eyes and she said "you also hamesha smell so good!" And both of them rested their foreheads against each other and took a deep breath almost capturing the other's essence. And before things got out of hand Sidharth swiftly walked away. This insanity had to stop and as soon as he got out he saw Rashmi and Vishal chatting with each other and decided the antidote to all that was Shehnaaz was the fake and diabolical Rashmi, he soon started flirting with her.

Sidharth and Shehnaz both knew something was brewing but were they ready for what destiny had in store for them?

Really really REALLLLLY sorry about the late update. Will try to post one update every week. I have a one year old baby so it does make things a bit difficult but grateful for the fact that some of you did write asking for updates!