Meant to be

Chapter 19: So near yet so far

Shehnaaz quite liked this version of post typhoid Sidharth! Sometime during the night that he was back, he pulled her flush against himself and spooned her with her back crouched against his torso and his head buried into her neck. She woke up to the wisps of breath that tickled her ear. A surge of emotion rose within her for this giant of a man and how he had cuddled into her. Because his breath was driving her crazy in many ways, she let out a shuddered breath and straightened herself while he remained curled against her. She started caressing and smoothing his swollen arm that lay heavy against her tummy. A sudden on slaughter of tears sprung up unexpectedly as she thought of the discomfort his body was going through. She wished he did not have to suffer physically. He was weak and his eyes were blood shot. As she was sniffling he rasped into her ear "ro kyu rahi hai meri jaan? Hmm?" She gasped at the intimacy of his voice but beyond that the feeling of belongingness it invoked between them. Could she dare assume that Sidharth was extending an intimacy that was not available earlier? She brushed it aside before dwelling further into it, such things never happened, a Sidharth Shukla never fell in love with a Shehnaaz Gill. She had to start recognising reality within this ridiculous reality show they were living in!

She answered in a wobbly voice "tu bohot weak hain Sidharth vaapis aaya kyun? Dekh tere haathon ki swelling kam nahi ho rahi hai. Yahaan log stress ko badhayengay. Pata nahi teko dekh kay mujhay lag raha hai ki aur rest chaiye tumhay. Idhar khaana aur rest dono nahi mileha teko. Tu na...." but before she could continue with her tirade, he interjected saying "to tunay kya meko aisay halkay mein liya hai kya. Mein yeh show jeetnay aaya hoon, ek typhoid ke swellitn ke wajah sey quit karoon mein. Haan difficult hoga lekin trophy jeetna hai toh it won't be easy na baby. Tu kyu tension le rahi hai tu chill kar na I will
Manage and if I can't toh then we will see what to do. Hain na?" He pecked her ear lobe and started nibbling on it.

"Haaaye Sidharth, tera yeh winner vaala attitude dekh kay mujhay gandhe waale feeling as rahe hain tujh par, Haaye bimaar aadmi kaisay aisay hot hot sakta hai! Siyappa ho jaata hai tere wajah sey har baar! Soja abhi nahi to mein tere weakness ka galat fayda utha sakti hoon bebu. Mere sey to Bach ke rehna theek hai" she said this and turned into him and buried her face in the crook of his neck. When his laughter resounded into her ear, she felt like she has come home after a long day outside braving the elements. "Meri Jhalli Shehnaaz Kaur Gill. Ek din toh yeh gande waale feeling ke baarey mein jaan na hai. Bataegi ya dikhaa key bataegi tu ke kya hothay hai yeh!"

She hissed in return and looked upto his face real close, in fact as her lips moved in response they have light feathery nips to Sidharth S cheeks which were resting against her lips " rahoongi toh na dikha paoongi! Kuch karna padega sidhaaarth kyunki mein teamo toomo mein nahi khel sakthi, Paras toh har time Mahira ko hi bachatha hai, mein kisi bhi insaan ko yahaan poori tarah support nahi kar sakthi, tu ik lautha tu hee hai jo meko sensible or sahi lagta, baaki sab ka mein time to time dekh kay hee kar sakthee hoon. Sidhaaaarth!" She whines as she could not complete what she wanted to say, that was always her problem, she always found it difficult to express herself. Half of the issues in her life was because of that when emotions overwhelmed her, she just could not articulate themZ
Sidharth got a tad bit irritated with her for bringing in Paras and Mahira into their intimate time of catch up but was also grateful because he got an opportunity to prime her fo what's going to come "acha jee aap ko yaad hai ki hum big boss khel rahay hain? Meko laga ki tu bhool hee gayi. Acha Shehnaaz sunn now what am telling you is serious. Mein jaanta hoon ke you will never ask anyone to make your a captain or save your or anything, but this is not your personal life here na! Ham log game mein hai baby log tereko use kar rahe hain, tu bhi use kar unko, aur use karna kya, sab strategy hoti hai strategy ke according tu kar. Lekin galat ka saath nahi dena chahiye chaahey game ho ha life. You do your best na, vaisay bhi I should not be telling you this lekin ek baath confidently bol sakta hoon ke you are a delight to watch, Paras aur mein completely entertained thay, an yeh tu compliment jaisay bhi me saktee hai aur warning ki tarah bhi" and before she could ask him anything further, he shut her down because, well because that is how he is, never one to say anything openly and he was never going to spoon feed her. Her journey was shaping up
Phenomenally and he did not want anyone to ever say that he had a hand in it. It was all hers to enjoy because she deserved it so he said "abhi issey aagay kuch muth pooch mein repeat bhi nahi karoonga na mein explain karoonga, soja chup chaap."