Ness' Comet

Ch 47: Partial Truth

Lizzie and I decided to go out after school since I had the car. I wanted to take us somewhere public so it would force me to be careful about what I revealed. If it was too private I might accidentally let something slip that was too secretive for her to know. The last thing I wanted was to hint to her that I was actually a vampire living in a family of vampires! She knew I was different but I doubted her mind immediately jumped to that conclusion since I had very few signs that would lead someone to believe that.
We both drove in silence to the nearby diner. I didn't eat there often considering neither of my parents ate food. The last time I came here I was was Jacob a few weeks ago. I cringed at the thought of Jacob. I was grateful at the very least that I could talk to Lizzie about what had happened the other day.

Once we made it, we were seated and waited expectantly for each other to say something first.
"Listen," said Lizzie. I let out a sigh of relief that she made the first move. "I know you can't tell me everything, and honestly, the more I've thought about it, I realized I don't actually think I want to know. I thought I did, but seeing the terrified look on your face earlier, I see it's more likely for my own good rather than yours that you've been keeping things from me."

I was surprised at her words. It now made my job significantly easier knowing that she wouldn't be pressing me too hard for answers anymore.

"Okay," I replied awkwardly.

"So," she continued, ignoring my awkwardness.  "Why don't we talk about whatever you want to talk about?"

I chuckled. "That actually is exactly what I want to do. I'm having some issues."

She raised an eyebrow. "Oh?"

I sighed. "I really think I messed up Liz."

She looked puzzled. "How? What did you do that was so terrible?"

I put my hands in my head, embarrassed. "It's about Jacob." I peaked up to her her eyes widen.

"Did something happen?!" She exclaimed.

"Shhh!" I urged her. "Yes, well no, well kind of..."

"What does that mean?"

I went on to recount to her what had happened and she listened intently. Nothing in her face gave away what she was thinking, which I wasn't used to from Lizzie. I realized while I was telling the story that I was maybe overreacting. It could very well have been my imagination! What if I'd made up the whole thing in my head? Not the part where we watched a movie but where I saw something behind his eyes that suggested he knew how I felt about him. If I didn't say anything, then I couldn't see any reason why things would have to change?

"Would it be so bad if he knew?" Said Lizzie finally.

I raised both eyebrows. "Of course it would! It would ruin everything!"

"But how?" She pressed.

"It's just weird, okay? Not to mention, there's a lot of other personal stuff going on right now in my family and this is the last thing that I should be worrying about!"

"Then why ARE you worrying so much about it?" Said Lizzie, crossing her arms.

I opened my mouth to retort but nothing came to mind. She had a very good point. I wasn't sure what the right answer was.

"Look Ness, I don't have all the info, but I think that you should just wait and see if he brings it up. If he does, it's probably better to to talk about it. You can't keep avoiding things, it's kind of becoming a toxic pattern."

I snorted. "Wow, don't tip toe around my feelings!"

She shrugged. "I never said I would."