Ennotana

Ennoooooooo

~ yall i forgot this was my story and i was reading it like oo what happens next then realized i had to write what happened next. Mentions of cutting and doings of cutting
Sign off this crazy bitch~
-enno-
I sprinted home after i saw the kiss i didn't stop until i was in my room. I slide under the covers of my bed and curled tightly into a ball and cried my eyes out. I knew he didn't like me and that confirmed it.  I pushed back the covered I promised I wouldn't do it again but I needed to relive the pain. I stood up and walked to the bathroom. I locked the door and pulled out the packet of blades. I cut along my waist I saw all of the old scars and I stared cutting deeper. Then I started cutting on my upper thighs. I started to feel dizzy so slide down and leaned against tub. I looked down at my hands and thought 'this is a lot more blood than last time'
"ᵉⁿⁿᵒˢʰⁱᵗᵃ" I heard faintly. "eⁿⁿᵒˢʰⁱᵗᵃ" I heard again 'it could be mom I don't want anyone to know' I thought. Wiyh what little strength I had left I turned on the water of the shower undressed and stepped under the water washing the blood off. I turned the shower off a little bit later and got out of the shower quickly bandaging my fresh cuts. Then I realized I didn't have any clean clothes in the bathroom. I wrapped a towel around my waist making sure it covered all of my bandages before I peekedout of the bathroom. I saw Tanaka standing in the middle of my room. He was staring right at me. I yelped and slammed the door shut and leaned against it. "En-" I cut him off "what are you doing here" I demanded. "Well you ran off and I just wanted to explain what you saw." Tanaka said quietly. I felt weigh against the other side of the door. "You have 10 minutes to explain,  but I need you to get off of the door and close your eyes." I said. "Why?" Tanaka asked. I felt the weight on the door easy. "Just do it." I said harshly. "Ok ok." He said. I peeked out the facing the other way. I stepped out and checked his eyes I grabbed an over sized hoodie that was 3 times too big for me and put it on then put on my underwear and short that were long enough to cover my bandages. Then I sat down on my bed with my legs crisscrossed. "Ok you can open your eyes again." I said. He opened his eyes then turned around and looked at me. "Now explain." I said. Without hesitation he started explaining and i listened. I wanted to hear his supposed "reason". I wasn't gonna get my hope up. He told me that it was an accident. I didn't trust him it would be a while before he earned my trust. "So you aren't secretly dating him?" I questioned to be sure. "No I'm not dating him." Tanaka said. "So Noya isn't cheating on Asahi with?" I asked "Noya is dating Asahi? I didn't know that but no he isn't cheating." Tanaka replied. I didn't like his answer but I didn't question him anymore. "Ok now leave." I said. 'Please stay' my mind pleaded. "Wait, I don't want to leave you here alone though. Your mom isn't home yet right?" Tanaka said. "No she's not home yet plus I'll be fine on my own." I said. "Well I'm staying because I know for a fact that your mom is not going to be home until tomorrow night" tanaka said. "Bu-" tanaka cut me off "no buts I'm stay." "Oh ok" i said. 'Oh lord tanaka staying at my house oh lord'  i thought to myself