29 year old Sarah Collins is still hurting over something that happened almost 4 years ago.
When David Morris, the person she blames for it all shows up back in her life, she is forced to try and forgive and move on.
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Sarah and JJ excuse themselves so I can talk to James. As soon as they are out of my eye sight, I can't help but fall to my knees.
"James, I'm so sorry." I break after trying to stay calm the whole time, "for all of the trouble I put you through while you were alive." I rub my face. "I am just so disappointed in myself for doing the one thing I promised myself I wouldn't do."
I shake my head in disbelief, "and you were always so understanding and patient." I choke up, "I mean you would drop everything to come pick me up while I was drunk off my ass," I pause, "because you wanted to make sure I was safe."
I think to myself for a minute.
"And how do I repay you?" I tear slides down my face, "I fall in love with your girl." Frustrated, I wipe the tear away, "and I don't even mean now; I mean then. When you were alive and madly in love with each other, I had such strong feelings towards her." I confess, "feelings I would have never acted on." I quickly defend.
"I need to tell her." I nod my head, convincing myself. "Tonight, I am going to tell her everything. I don't know how she is going to respond." I grunt, "probably understanding. God when she loves someone she is all in." I chuckle, "she probably gets that from you."
I switch from kneeling to sitting, "I'm not sure if she's what I need right now." Another tear falls down my face. "And I know that's horrible to say... but I don't know if I'm ready. I don't know if I'm worthy of her love." I take a deep breath, "I don't know if I can love her the way she deserves, when I'm still working on loving myself."
I sit there, tears still falling, for a little longer before standing up. "I love you, buddy. I miss you."
I walk toward my car and see the worried look on Sarah's face.
"You okay?" She asks concerned.
I nod my head. "I'm just a pansy."
She scoffs and rolls her eyes. "No you are not. You've been through a lot. And he's your best friend. It's okay to cry." She wipes a tear from under my eye.
"Yeah, David!" JJ chimes in, "I cry all the time."
We all have a good laugh. Causing my tension to ease a little. I take a deep breath before pulling out of the parking lot and heading to Jim and Suzanne's.
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I wake up to the sound of a shower running. I open my eyes and look around; it doesn't look familiar. I squint as I try to focus and fight the pain just a little. There is a coffee table with flowers in the middle, an open kitchen across from me and a big window behind me. I sit up on the couch slowly, trying not to anger my head more.
