Mid-Air Ball (The Athletes #1) PUBLISHED UNDER KPUB PH

Chapter 37

Chapter 37

Promotion

Dapat ba hinintay ko ang magiging reaksyon niya? O kung mayroon ba siyang saloobin, o opinyon? Natatakot kasi akong malaman ang sagot niya. Natatakot dahil alam kong may posibilidad na ibalik niya sa akin ang sakit na minsan ko nang pinaramdam sa kanya.

Meron na ang sasakyan ni Daddy pag-uwi ko. I wiped my cheeks and made myself presentable. Mukha akong basura.

Pagpasok ko sa bahay, nakabukas ang ilaw pero walang tao. I walked upstairs to check on dad.

"Dad?" I asked, and I heard footsteps. Hinawakan ko ka agad ang doorknob. "Can I talk to you behind closed doors?" I asked.

Matagal bago siya umimik pero alam kong nasa harap ko lang siya, pumapagitna sa amin ang pinto.

"Okay... Anong problema?"

"I think this is corny... but can we talk about love?" I asked bravely. "Don't open the door... " I added.

"Okay," he said. Parang kabado.

I slid down. Naupo ako at sumandal sa upuan. A fucking dramatic stance, but this is what I need.

"You know I ended my thing with Zoren, right?" I started.

"Yes..."

"I just want to share why I did that..."

I smiled. I want to be enlightened. Maybe... Just maybe Dad can clear my mind. Or maybe he can say things or judgments that could help me escape my fucking grave.

"I chose to be broken earlier rather than be broken deeply..."

Pero palagi kong tinatanong, paano ba malalaman na mas malalim ang sakit? Tinigil ko nang mas maaga, pero iyong sakit, sobra sobra pa rin naman...

"Kasi... Kasi nasa isip ko na... na baka magaya kami sa inyo," I cried because of the truth. "Natakot ako na baka magaya ako kay Mommy, at masaktan ko siya nang sobra sa hinaharap... And likewise. I was more afraid he'd be like Mom someday and leave me badly broken..."

Hindi umimik si Daddy kaya nagpatuloy ako.

"And I thought that maybe, what happened between you and Mom... is already the foretelling of what we would become in the future... I was so... consumed by your history with Mom... "

That's really the truth. What I saw from them really influenced my mind. It has impacted me so much that I decided very impulsive and ... selfishly.

Nagpunas ako ng mukha. Basang basa na.

"At alam mo naman, dad... 'yong nangyari kay Kenzie. Dumagdag pa iyon... I was scared she would attempt again... Kaya sa isip ko, siguro oras na muna talaga para itigil ang sa amin. There were a lot of things going on... And I can't risk precious things for a young love that is uncertain..."

But that young love was very precious to me, too. And I chose to let go of it.

Umiyak ako. Alam kong meron pa akong mailalabas, pero hindi ngayon.

Hindi kay Daddy...

"Because of you two, my mind was blocked by negativity... I did not believe in love, because you two are my example of it."

Umiiyak ako nang bumukas ang pinto. Wala na akong nagawa. I stood up and was pulled for a father's hug. I cried even more.

"Ngayon, gustong gusto ko ulit subukan, pero ito na naman iyong takot... Nakakatakot maloko..." I said between my sobs.

"Love is dangerous, but you will know in the end that it is worth it if you try, Kesian."

Umiling ako. Paano kung pangit ang kalalabasan? Hearts will die.