The Shift That Change My Life. [H.S.][English version]

Please... Don't run from me

3 weeks later

The last few weeks have been quite trying for me and my family as my grandfather's death tore my mother's family apart. Even my relationship with Harry suffered from it. We didn't talk much to each other and when we did it was short and vague ... maybe he just wanted to give me space to mourn. However, he looked strange, I have the impression that he is hiding something from me.

We just landed at London Airport, and there is something weird. The guys are not there and I understand why as soon as I see the paparazzi chasing us, well it's true that Gemma is with us, but still ...

Pap's: Vicky .... VICKY !?

Damn, they're talking to me !?

G: Don't worry about them, come on, let's go!

A pap's catches up with us!

Pap's: So, Vicky, how are you going, you know, with your breakup with Harry Styles?

Break up !?

I stop walking.

The pap's shows me a magazine. The front page is a photo of Harry with a blonde girl, the headline is: "Styles and Camille more in love than ever, someone close to the singer confirms their romantic relationship." And the worst part of this front page is the kiss that they exchange! Tears run down my face without me being able to notice or stop them. I understand now, why he was weird, he is cheating. He's cheating ON ME!

***

I don't even know how we got to Anne's place, but there we are! Harry, texted and called me several times but I didn't read anything and didn't answer. I don't understand why he did that, I thought he loved me ... I don't fucking understand !!

I'm locked in "my" room, I mean Harry's ...

Knock Knock knock!

V: I want to see no one!

For more than 2 hours I have been staring at my claddagh and crying all the tears in my body. Why did he do this to me?

Why do I miss him?

Why do I still love him?

Knock Knock knock

V: Leave me alone !!

H: Baby, I can explain everything to you! Open please!

No, but he doesn't care about me !!

V: Explain to me what ? That it's not you it's James! I shouted at him.

H: V, open the door to me please!

Well, shit, I get out of bed and go to open it for him. He cried too, god why is he so beautiful?

He approaches me as fast as he can and puts his mouth on mine, he kisses me like it's a near death situation. Even though I want it with all my being, I push him away.

V: Don't touch me, don't touch me anymore!

H: V .. It's really not what you think!

V: Do you take me for a turkey Harry? I saw the photo, you kiss her on the mouth, what are you going to tell me that you got caught up on the sidewalk and you fell on her mouth? Frankly, Harry!

H: It's Modest! It's to sell ...

V: Modest !? Sell ​​!? No, but you really take me for an bumb !?

I get up from the bed we were sitting on it.

H: I love you Vicky, it's the truth that I'm telling you. I never intended to cheat on you my love, it was Camille who kissed me in front of the paps, I rejected her straight away, but the photo was already in the box ... but Modest has had what he wanted the sales of both parties exploded. The contract is over and I told Modest again that I didn't want to be in their scam to sell anymore, because I was in a relationship, happy to be and really in love with MY Vicky!

We're both crying now!

H: Vicky, I don't want to lose you! I love you so much!

V: I ... I need time!

I go to my suitcase which is still full of my personal effects! Pick it up and lead me to the door!

H: What are you doing?

V: I told you I need time Harry!

H: V .. Please don't do this!

He takes my arm and pulls me to him.

H: Are you breaking up with me?

I don't answer.

He walks up to me, lifts my chin with his hand so that I look at him.

H: If you are breaking up with me... at least baby, let me love you goodbye!

He told me that in a whisper, and we still cry.

He puts his lips on mine once more, but I don't push him away this time. I rather cling to his neck. Pull on his magnificent curls which in a few hours will be history. I have to leave, I love him so much, but we always ended up hurting each other. His hands run over me and we move back to the bed. We undress each other slowly and lovingly. He enters me, slowly and very slowly. His comings and goings are slow so he doesn't want to hurry, he's like me, he doesn't want it to end.

H: I love you Vicky!

He tells me when he withdraws from me. He lies down next to me and draws me to him!

H: Come to the show tonight, please give us one last chance.

V: Harry ...

H: V, I'm beggin you!

He started to cry again. Shit!

V: Okay, I'll go to the show.

H: Thanks!

He strokes the back of his left hand, the thigh of his right, and kiss the top of my head repeatedly.

***

At the show the fans wonder what I'm doing there, others are wholeheartedly with me. Harry, is not well and it seems he hardly speaks, hardly dances. He just sing his parts and that's it. When the song You and i is over I can't take it anymore I hug Rosie and Jess, then walk towards the exit of the stadium.

R and J: What are you doing?

V: I'm leaving, I can't ... anyway, I love you girls so much and I love him so much too, but I can't ... I'm sorry.

R and J: What are we telling him?

V: Tell him that I love him, but that I have to think about it and therefore leave!

When I leave the stadium, I hear Harry singing: "hope that you don't run from me!"

I'm so sorry Harry, but I have to run away from you this time!