somewhere only we know

monday 5:33pm sander

I am in my bed ever since I came back home. I hear Mary entering the house with Jeff and Sam.
- Hey there ! Says happily Mary

She knocks at my door before coming in.
- Hey Sander, are you okay ? she asks softly
I dont answer.
- The school called, told us that you didnt go to school, is everything okay ?
- Sure.
- Are you sure ?
I sight.
- Do you want to tell me. Maybe I can help.

I sight again, turn around in my bed so that I can face her.
- I went to school, I just left before the first class.
- Why ?
I hesitated.
- Well... there is this teacher... she is usually nice with me, a bit intrusive and it pisses me off, I must admit it but yet I've always thought it was out of kindness, you know ?
- Sure, what happened ?
- She... she told me that... anyone could see that something is wrong with me.

Mary looks at me a second, searching for the right words to say.
- Look, nothing is wrong with you. Do you hear me ?

I nod, but i am not convinced.

- And when I say nothing, I mean nothing. There is nothing wrong with you being bipolar, there is nothing wrong with you liking people no matter their gender, there is nothing wrong with you having bleached hair. But mostly, there is nothing wrong with you being who you are. Okay ?

I nod once again. After all I am glad that she came in my room in the first place.
- Now, what's the name of that teacher ?
I giggle.
- It's okay, I think she already feels bad for telling me what she said anyway.
- Are you sure you dont want me to call the school or anything ?
I hesitate :
- I think that... right now, i just need to be alone.
- Oh... okay, sure...
I turn around, still laying, but facing the wall this time.
After about five seconds, I hear her sighting and leaving the room in silence.
I stayed in my bed the whole day, knowing that Miss Stuart didnt mean to tell me what she did, it wasn't her intention to yell it to the whole school. But yet, she said it, and she was right.

Something is wrong with me.

Mary wants me to think that it is not true because she is probably hoping that it isnt true, but it actually is true. I cant blame Miss Stuart for telling me something true, it wouldn't be fair.

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Hi it's the author, to be honest i didn't write any chapter for this book since like... this summer ? I don't know but it has really been quite a long time, since then my writing style changed, a lot... and I don't really have much inspiration for this story, i don't really feel like people read it anyway haha

I am not saying that I am giving up on this book that I won't ever finish it, but this one isn't my priority, I am writing another one since a few months now, maybe I'll publish it here someday, I don't know 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ but sorry to disappoint but it isn't about Skam 👁👄👁

I've been back to writing anyways so maybe i'll finish this book someday as I said since I enjoy writing again (bc there was a moment when I had completely stopped writing) so yeah I don't know lmao just so you know I didn't even decide the end of this book but if someday I decide it I am pretty sure that I'll update the story but if that happens it won't probably be before months :/

Anyways thank you for reading my book and I hope that I'll find the motivation to finish it :)