somewhere only we know

tuesday 4:08pm

I was sleeping when i hear my parents and the woman of the other day yelling at each other. I sight and try to go back to sleep, recently I barely go to school, I dont talk much and I sleep a lot. After a while I get up and go try to figure out what is all this about.
When I enter the room they suddenly all stop talking.
I look at them confused.
- What's wrong ? I ask
They stay silence for a while until my father says :
- She found you another place to live.
- What ? But I never said I wanted to leave ! I explode
- Sander, I found you a great family... they will take care of you... I know that you dont accept it and dont want to talk about it, but what your father does to you... it really isnt okay and it cant keep going that way.
- It has been going the same way ever since I am little, why would it change ? Uh ? And what kind of person would want me ? I am a living mess ! I yell
- No, you are not, the fact that you got some issues doesnt make you any less of a great person ! You deserve to be happy, and I am sorry to tell you that but you probably wont ever be really happy if you stay in here.

I dont say anything, I dont know if what she is saying about my happiness is true... but I cant just leave my mom like that.

- Sander, I dont want to make you feel forced or anything but actually you dont really get to decide anything, we took the decision to take you away from the toxic environment you are currently living in.
I laugh.
- Yeah well you are not any better, you are taking this decision for you, not for my own good, you are just trying to control me. But guess what, your little speech about finding happiness might be inspiring, but it wasn't enough. I am coming because I have no other choice left, not because I want to.
She sights.
I go in my room and put some clothes in a bag, I look around me and remember many things : my depressed episodes, everytime my dad beat me up in this room, my mom comforting me...

I meet them again and my dad grabs me by the arm like he used to do before beating me up, I stop moving and dont look at him.
- You arent going anywhere.
I whisper :
- I don't have the choice-
- I am not letting you choose either. If you leave, you wont see us ever again.
- Sir he is just a kid, and if you show him some interest while he is in his other family you'll be able to have him living here soon again.
- Do you think I am going to humiliate myself ? If he is my son, he belongs to me, that's it.
- He doesnt belong to you, he is a human being ! He isnt your property !
She grabs my other arm and tries to make me move but I dont.
- Sander, dont you see how toxic this is ?? You need to leave and have a new home ! A great and loving home !

I stay silence for a while before saying.
- I am sorry but I am afraid that this is my home... and I... I... I belong here.
- Sander what you are doing right now isnt changing anything, if in two weeks you still haven't leave this place, we'll have to send other people to take you out of here... and they wont be as friendly as I am.
My dad laughs.
- Is there something funny sir ?
- Send unfriendly people to us, we don't care, because guess what, if you are here it is because I am not really friendly either apparently.
- I swear they wont hesitate to hit you if they need to.
- Oh how sad... now tell me if I hesitated ! he says before punching me in the face
I start to fall over but he keeps me standing up by still grabbing hardly my arm.
- ARE YOU CRAZY ?! yells the woman
He laughs and punches me in the stomach. This time I bend myself, touching where he just hit me.
- Honey are you okay ?! screams my mom
- I am fi-
He hits me again and again, until I find it hard to breath.
- You see how friendly I am with my own son ? Imagine how I would be with unknown people that try to take something that belongs to me away from me.

I cough blood, on the floor. I start passing out.
- I- I think I am gonna...
I say before falling down on the floor.