somewhere only we know

saturday 11 : 20 pm sander

Robbe and I have been kissing for a a while and now we are just sitting in front of each other in a cabin.
We talk a bit but our discussions are not really serious since I am wasted and I believe that he isnt really sober as well.
I stare at him and ask with a smile.
- Why did you hate me at the beginning?
He laughs, pushes me a bit and answer:
- I didnt hate you !
- Oh really ?
He giggles.
- No... I actually liked you, but I didnt want to admit it!
I get closer to him, smile and say before kissing him :
- Well you did admit that you like me...
He kisses me back and sights when I break the kiss. It makes me laugh, he is just so cute !

Suddenly Jens comes in, the door of our cabin is completely open, Robbe and I are sitting in front of each others, Robbe a hand on my leg and I have his feet on my knees. We dont have time to separate ourselves, Jens look at us.
- ...what are you guys doing ? he asks suspiciously
It is clear that he understood that something is happened between Robbe and I.
Robbe takes off his feet from my knees, throw away my leg, get up and simply answer :
- We were chilling.
Jens frowns.
- Weren't like... your hand on his leg ?
There is a silence that I break. I stand up suddenly and ask to all the alcohol in my blood to wake up and make me act like a person who is clearly not sober. I put my arms on Robbe's and Jens's shoulders and say :
- Man we're so high ! Do you wanna smoke ?
Jens seems to think that I am indeed drunk and high, which isnt really false...
- Hum... does Britt knows that you are high ? he asks
I sight.
- Ugh Britt Britt Britt... no she doesn't know and she doesn't need to know otherwise when I'll come back to my house I won't have a pretty great time !

I let a sad laugh escape from mouth.
Robbe stares at me, he looks worried.
- What do you mean ? asks Robbe
- Does your parents abuse you or hit you...? question me Jens
I sight and just say :
- Let's not talk about that okay ? Okay ! I think I am gonna dance ! I try to cheer up the mood

I leave the bathroom and Robbe comes after me, take my arm and forces me to look at him.
- Hey, what was that ? he looks stressed out
I close my eyes and say :
- Nothing, sorry.
- You cant say something like "I am not gonna have a great time at home if they know I am getting high here" and then just walk away !
- I dont wanna talk about it okay ?
- So why did you talk about it ?
- Because I had to distract Jens ! Look I really like you, but before making things officials i need to break up with Britt and you with Noor, I dont want Britt to know by someone else that I cheated on her, okay ? I yelled to be heard because the music is really loud

Robbe look confused.
- You want to make things officials ? Now ? We kissed once... Sander....
I cant believe what he is saying. I laugh.
- What ? asks Robbe
- Fuck you. I say before leaving

I can hear Robbe telling me to come back but I dont care, I've been hoping for weeks to be with him and  now he tells me that the kiss isnt enough for us to be together ? This is non sense.