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sunday 5 : 07 pm sander

I am chilling on my bed, I didnt see Robbe since yesterday morning and Britt just left. I am honestly kinda lost, I dont know if i really want to leave Britt. There are times where i love her a lot and times where i cant stand her at all...

I hear the door being unlock, I get up, it is probably my parents.
- Hey honey ! says my mom happy. How was your party ?
- Hey mom, it was great.

My dad sights.
- Britt sent her text.
I look at him and frown.
- What did she say ? I ask concerned
- That you smoke a joint.

For real ?
I roll my eyes.
- Dont roll your eyes like that you know you cant do drugs otherwise you could make an episode Sander ! he is almost yelling at me
- Yeah yeah I know, but I just smoked one joint nothing more, it is no big deal... I try to defend myself
- Yes it is a big deal Sander ! Dont you get it?! We can't trust you !

I bite my lips searching something to answer.

- Okay go to your bedroom. continues my dad
- But- i start but he interrupts me
- Go. To. Your. Room. Now.

I give a look to my mom, sight and leave. I sit on my bed and send a text to Britt.

"Seriously??"

I recieve the answer a second later.
From : Britt 😘😘
"??"

I text : "Why did you tell my parents that I smoked ?!"

From : Britt 😘😘
"Because you did ?🤨"

I sight, I cant keep going that way I need to talk to her to make her understand how oppressive she is.
"We need to have a conversation"

From : Britt 😘😘
"About what ? Is there a problem ?"

"Yes Britt there is a problem and it is driving me crazy"

From : Britt 😘😘
"Okay then tell me"

I decide to call her.
- Hey, she says
- Hey...
- Sander I really dont get why you are so pissed, seriously you are overreacting !
I laugh ironically.
- Overreacting ? Are you serious Britt ??
- Yes !
- We cant keep going that way... I finally say
- What do you mean ? she asks unsure
- I mean that when i am with you i feel like you are babysitting me and not loving me ! I want a girlfriend not another parent !
- Sander, did you take your medicines maybe you are making a crisis...
- What the hell ?! Can you hear yourself right now?! I need you to stop being like that ! Okay ?!

There is a quick silence that she breaks.
- But I am the way I am with you because I love you and I dont want anything bad to happen to you.

I can hear her crying through the phone.
I close my eyes and sight, fuck... what can I answer to that.
- I know... but it is really starting to oppress me, I am not telling you to stop looking after me... just try to do it less... okay ?
- Okay, I'll do my best...

I sight and look down. I am completely lost.
- I am gonna hang up. I say
- Okay, bye... I love you.
I bite my lip, i hate lying.
- Yeah hum... same, see you later babe.

I hang up and take my head in my hands, it is so hard...