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Johnten / NCT / Isolating pt. 2

Johnny and Ten talk again for the first time in a month.

"Ten?"

Johnny's eyes widen at the sight of a sobbing and hysteric Ten. Not. Good. It's been months since the last anxiety attack and Kun obviously doesn't know how to calm Ten down. What happened that it is this bad now? Ten is now frozen, his breath still wheezing and his eyes focused on Johnny on the screen. For Ten's and Kun's sake Johnny decides to temporarily abandon those thoughts. He can keep worrying about all of the circumstances that lead to such attacks and situations later.

"Kun?" He addresses his other dongsaeng in a calm voice to avoid stressing his boyfriend even more. "Stop touching him. Give him room but take his hands." If Johnny would have been there, he could have seen Kun's struggle to grab both of Ten's hands with the one that isn't occupied holding the phone. "Good. Now lead them to your chest. Let him feel your heartbeat and the rhythm of your breath." Let's pray that Kun hasn't started panicking, too.

Kun places Ten's hands on his chest and after about two minutes he can see a change. The wheezing mostly fades away and Ten starts crying again. This time out of the relief of actually being able to inhale oxygen. However, although it is Kun that is supporting him his eyes don't leave Johnny.

When Johnny can see that Ten is calm enough to listen to him, he begins to talk to him in a quiet and very gentle voice. "Ten. It's okay. You're okay. I'm here, you're not alone."

Kun almost clears his throat but stops last second.

Ten nods. It's just a slight movement, almost invisible, but Johnny can finally relax a bit. But it's not completely over yet. He has to make sure Ten is fine. "Is the weight still there? Can you still feel it?" Ten nods again. "Why is it this heavy, darling?"

Ten shrugs a bit. Johnny just gives him a reassuring smile. "You're okay. You're safe with me, you can tell me. What's got you all worked up, huh?" The tears keep running down Ten's cheeks when he whispers. "You're not here." Johnny's chest starts to hurt. Fuck. But Ten hasn't finished. "You're not talking to me and it's-" A sob interrupts his sentence but he keeps going, keeps ripping Johnny's heart out of his chest bit by bit. "It's my fault. And I ... I let myself get wasted again and now nobody talks to me anymore because I haven't talked to them. I'm so dependent on you that I can't function without you anymore and I don't want that, Johnny! I want to be me. But it's like I'm not myself when you're not here and I don't think I can cope with that. I'm weak. Pathetic. And ... and-" Ten's crying gets worse and Johnny watches helpless how his love breaks down in front of him. "I didn't eat your pancakes. And now there's mold on them."

Kun breaks into a laugh.

Johnny and Ten both decide to ignore him.

"Hon, it's okay. You're still yourself even when I'm not there." Johnny reassures Ten with a loving smile. He's hurt. His chest hurts like hell and it pains to know that he's the reason Ten spent the last four weeks isolating himself from the other members. "Listen Ten, you're not the problem. You've never been the problem and you could never be the problem." Ten freezes. Johnny can read him like a book. It's kinda scary. "If we wouldn't have had that argument, you would be fine right now. And that argument is not your fault. I didn't consider your feelings when I left you sleeping." Ten is fast to interrupt him. "But you didn't know it would be such a big deal for me. It wouldn't have been a problem if it were you sleeping and me leaving. I just keep on being dramatic and clingy when I don't have to be. You shouldn't have to say goodbye to me, Johnny. I was being unnecessary bitchy again and I keep trying. I keep trying to control all of the stuff in my brain, my attitude, jealousy, anxiety. But I just can't!" "Hey, Ten. Relax." Oh god, Johnny really wants to be in Korea right now. "I'll say it gladly again; you're not the problem here. We all have different needs. And you needed me and I wasn't there. We're both at fault. I left without a proper goodbye and you blocked me so I couldn't reach out to you."

"WHAT?"

Ten's breath hitches. "I BLOCKED YOU?" "Eh, yes. Why else would I call Kun to check on you instead of just asking you?"

Kun is just sitting there. He realized a while ago that he was not necessary anymore but couldn't exactly escape the situation because Ten still has one of his hands in a death grip. He swears he can hear his bones clicking.

"I didn't know I blocked you, Johnny. I thought you were ignoring me because I kept ignoring you! That's why I called Yuta all the time. To know how you're doing." That was why Yuta didn't tell him who he was talking to all the time? Because it was Ten? And he obviously didn't want to get involved in their misunderstanding. "Oh." Is the only thing he can say. Ten didn't block him on purpose? He wasn't mad at Johnny anymore? "Johnny, I'm sorry! I didn't know that! Maybe I did it that one night when I was drunk and kept binge watching all those videos of you having fun with..." Ten gulps. "Fun with Mark."

Yes, Johnny really wanted to be back in Korea.

"I'll be back in two days. You'll see the difference between you and Mark."

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960 words
That escalated quickly.

Happy Birthday specialsuga
I love you and hope u don't miss me too much! Oh, and this is my present, deal with it.
Ich hoffe du musst dich morgen nicht übergeben, so betrunken wie du jetzt schon bist ✨

Also I think I'll write a part 3, I really wanna see their reunion :))