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Minsung / Stray Kids / I'm okay pt. 2

Some incorrect medical details in here, if you know the actual procedures etc. please tell me, I'm not a doctor.

Jisung's hands tremble. He tried to stop it, but to no avail. They've been trembling for hours now. Hours since Chan and him arrived at the hospital, they got no information about Minho other than he's had to have an emergency surgery.

Obviously. Half his rib cage basically disappeared when it got crushed by the car.

The chances for Minho to- to survive aren't that high.

Survive.

I'm okay.

He's not. Minho might die. In a few hours, minutes, seconds, Jisung might never hold Minho in his arms again. They might never hug again. Maybe he'll never hear Minho's voice again. Maybe he'll never see Minho dance again. Maybe he'll never kiss Minho again. Maybe he'll never see Minho smile again. Maybe ... maybe there is going to be this big hole in his life from now on. It's not even unlikely. It's unlikely that Minho will ever be completely fine again.

I'm okay.

And Minho's voice ... The weight on Jisung's chest crushes his lungs, makes his chest tighten, and his heart burst with its rapid beat.

No more I love you's ever again. No more staring into each other's eyes until they fall asleep in each other's embrace. No more cuddles. No more intimacy.

He's going to be alone forever. Alone like he's alone right now although Chan sits next to him. Alone, not able to let anyone else close to him.

Jisung doesn't think he can ever find anyone else than Minho that he would want to share his thoughts with, his wishes, his worries, and his love. His life. They've been through so much, they've made so many memories together, lived together for so long, have been a couple for all those years. No one will ever reach those extremely high standards that Minho set just by simply existing and breathing.

Jisung hasn't cried. He can't. The tears just won't come. At this point it's just all so surreal. He thinks about the potential loss, thinks about the surgery, thinks about the situation, but he doesn't understand it. He can't understand it. He doesn't realize that this is reality now. It sounds cliche but this just can't be real.

Why would this happen? Why would this happen to Minho? Minho has never done anything wrong, has never hurt anyone, never committed a crime, he's just tried to make everyone else's lives a bit brighter. He makes Jisung's life brighter. Made Jisung's life brighter.

I'm okay.

Is this some greater power, some kind of God punishing them for being a couple? Fate punishing them because everything has been so nice and perfect until now?

Don't kill Minho, please. Whoever has any kind of control over this situation, take me. Take anyone else. Just not Minho. You can do anything you want to me, just let Minho live. Let him be happy and healthy. I'm begging you, please. This is all for Minho. He doesn't deserve this.

"Relatives of Lee Minho."

Jisung can't look up. It's just Chan and him here, the others are still at the dorm. Has Chan told them what happened? Jisung doesn't know.

When Chan understands that Jisung won't say anything, he speaks up. "That's us!" The doctor nods and gestures to them to follow her.

Jisung has the small hope that the doctor might lead them to Minho's room, but she opens the door to a smaller room without beds but a desk with a computer on top of it, and loads of books on the metallic shelves. Chan and Jisung sit down on the two chairs facing her's.