Kpop boyxboy Oneshots

Jaeyong / NCT / Soulmates a.e.

Alternate ending requested by @markerrlee

I was feeling a bit lazy so the beginning is very similar, but the whole plot and the relationship between Taeyong and Jaehyun is different - as well as the end.

18. Tomorrow Taeyong will be 18. More specific, in about thirty minutes it will be midnight.

And to be honest, he doesn't know if he should be happy about that or not. It's the day he'll finally be independent, the day he'll finally be able to leave this sad excuse of a home and live with his best friend. Unfortunately, that's also the age he can meet his soulmate, the age you can recognize them as your other half or closest friend.

And while he was always excited for this day - let's be honest, everybody would be excited - that suddenly changed a year ago. A year ago, at the age of 17, Taeyong had sex for the first time. Without his consent. With a man about three years older than him at midnight in a parking lot.

Taeyong was raped. And his soulmate knows. They know because of the pain it caused Taeyong. They know because of the self-hatred and the self harm that inevitably also showed on his soulmate's body.

Scars and pain. Those are the things soulmates share for their whole life. Taeyong doesn't want to meet his soulmate, not because he hates them. He just feels so incredibly guilty. Taeyong not only scarred himself for life, he also scarred an innocent person.

The one to never receive a scar is Taeyong. The strongest pain he's felt was at the age of five when his soulmate bumped into a table - at least a table would be an explanation for the pain - and managed to fall to the ground and sprain their ankle. However that is possible.

Just knowing he caused someone else this huge amount of pain, has broken Taeyong mentally. He has not only fucked up his own life and stomach (that's the easiest spot to hide cuts from his family), he's also ruined another human's appearance and maybe even mental health.

Tomorrow is gonna be his 18th birthday. Tomorrow is gonna be his last day. Taeyong deserves to die.

It's not like a lot of people will miss him anyways. His family members distanced themselves from Taeyong when the real state of his mental health started to become more and more obvious. Taeyong couldn't maintain most of his friendships, actually lost all of his friends except for one. He's just felt so drained the whole time, humans in general just drained him of his energy even more, it felt like too much of a chore to text someone or even reply to others' messages.

(start of me finally being a little original)

The only one that still bothers to keep in touch and genuinely cares about him is Jaehyun. Jaehyun is the reason Taeyong hasn't ended this pure torture earlier. Jaehyun is probably the only person on this world that hasn't given up on Taeyong yet. He hasn't given up. Taeyong has.

Jaehyun is Taeyong's best friend. His only friend. And also his crush.

Because if all of this crap isn't already enough to ruin his mental health, the fact that he's homosexual in a homophobic country with a homophobic family really pushes Taeyong over the edge.

With shaky hands Taeyong pulls out his phone, looking for the only chat on snapchat. He doesn't know why he choses snapchat, but it's the only app he can think of right now.

Tears blur his vision when he starts to record. It's short.

"I'm sorry."

Before his phone can record the sobbing and the tears, he ends the video and just sends it. He really is sorry. For a lot of things.