The Villainess With No Happy Endings

Chapter Twenty-Eight - Love Is Confusing And Painful

It has been a while since the moment happened between me and Erik. We are at a standstill with each other, it's was not hate and it is was not love either. He doesn't look at me with scared eyes anymore but I can't understand the look in his eyes anymore when I catch him looking at me.

I don't want to understand it, I don't care about how he thinks about me anymore. That a lie, you care. Why do you care still? So pathetic, you make me feel sick. Fucking useless piece of shit...

I am also dealing with the angry voice more often. The other two often show up but for some reason, the angry voice keeps showing up more often. It is often hard to tell the difference between my thoughts and their voice. What if one day I am no longer able to tell the difference anymore... I don't want to think about it.

Life in this house usually went from getting training from Drucilla or Everette. We would either be fighting against each other, learning how to use different weapons, learning how to identify plants and what they can do, and recently getting paired up to spend a few days in the forest.

Drucilla told us it would be helpful and give us a good experience if we ever one day have to survive outside for a while. I got paired up with Eli first then Colton and now I am finally getting paired up with Merrill. I was not looking forward to this but at least I didn't have to deal with Erik or Isaias, yet.

I was waiting outside of the entrance of the forest for Merrill to appear so we could go inside of the forest together. I had a bag filled with enough clothes for a week in a forest and supplies that will be helpful if anything happens during our time in the forest.

"Aury! I am here~ I hope I didn't make you wait too long." Merrill skipped his way over to me and gave me a huge smile when he finally got in front of me. I just rolled my eyes and turned to go inside of the forest.

"I can't wait to spend a week in the forest with you. It's going to be so fun with just us alone together. I wonder what situation we will get into..." I didn't like the smile that was on Merrill's face and I felt the urge to just kick him in the butt but I knew he wouldn't hate that.

"Don't do anything suspicious or else I will...." I was trying to think of what I could do to Merrill if he ever did something I dislike. He didn't hate being hurt so I couldn't figure out what I could do to him.

"Just don't do anything." I gave up figuring out what to say to him and decided to ignore him as we walked into the forest to find a good place to set up our tent. As we were walking, Merrill kept talking about whatever. He usually talks about how beautiful I looked and how he was curious if there was a good place where we could look up at the stars.

"My mom really loves stars... She knows a lot about them and has a lot of books on them as well." I notice for some reason Merrill's expression grew a bit strange once he spoke about his mother. It seems... really familiar to me.

"Ah! This is a perfect space for us! The trees over here can clearly show us the sky so that means we will be able to see the stars!" Merrill's expression went back to normal once he spotted a place for us to set up our tent.

I decided not to bring up his weird expression when he talked about his mother, it wasn't my place to ask him that. I just follow behind him to the place he wanted to set up our tent and started to set up my tent.

I was used to putting up a tent now but I could see that he was struggling. After I finished with my tent and realized he was still having a hard time, I let out a sigh and went over to help him with his tent. I made sure his tent wouldn't be able to fall on him while he was sleeping or it wouldn't get blown away while he was sleeping.