The Villainess With No Happy Endings

Chapter Thirty-Four - Sometimes You Can Only Cry - Volume Two Ending

 Do you know how it feels to wake up from a deep sleep? Like a sleep that seems like it wasn't that long but your body is stiff and you are thirsty. And you just need to brush your teeth because it is not a good feeling at the moment.

I was currently dealing with that and it was strange. My body felt well rested but at the same time, it felt super sore. I was having a hard time understanding what time it was, where I am, or the meaning of everything in the world. I could feel something wet on my face and I just knew it was drool, gross.

Before I could even handle that, I felt myself getting tackled. I was not expecting it and I could feel all the air leaving my lungs. I was confused and still half asleep. Someone was talking but all I could hear was just a bunch of mumbles. I could hear them but the words didn't make sense at all.

"Aury... Aury... Aury! You are awake... I thought... Aurelia!" I could feel the arms that were wrapped around me get tighter and I could feel myself struggling to get some form of air back in my lungs. Eli had such a strong grip even though he looks so fragile and all that. I wish he would learn how to control his strength...

Wait, Eli? It took a while but everything in my head decided that now was a good time to start working. I realized I was on a bed, a soft bed. I could feel myself sinking in it due to how soft this bed is. I also realize I am super hungry, like really hungry. I could eat a whole feast by myself due to how hungry I am.

"I am hungry and thirsty..." That was the first thing I said, not asking how long I was sleeping or what was going on. I just wanted something to drink and eat. Maybe I was trying to process everything I dealt with. I don't know. It is confusing. I am not good at figuring myself out.

I think other people were in the room but I was too busy dealing with a crying Eli. He wouldn't let go of me at all and he would dig his nails into me whenever I tried to separate from him. So I just let him hold me for as long as he wanted. It was nice, I think, to get a hug like this... I wish Mae was hugging me.

For some reason, my body felt rather weird, like half of it. It didn't make sense but I was too hungry and thirsty to care much about it. I couldn't understand anything Eli was saying because it was just a mixture of sobs and wet coughs. It was good that snot wasn't coming out of his nose but I didn't want to be this close to him at the moment.

"Don't leave me behind! I am sorry for being a bad friend before! I will do better, just don't ever leave me! I thought you were goooone! Don't die! You are not allowed to die!" I didn't know how to tell Eli I can't control when I will die but I had a feeling it was better to talk about that when he is calmer. Also, it was starting to hurt with how hard he was hugging me and his nails were digging into my skin at the moment. He doesn't want to let me go...

I wonder if I was the old me would I be happy with this situation? The person who I loved was crying over me. I don't feel that same warm feeling in my heart and it is a bit sad... I just rub my cheek on Eli's head, hoping to calm him down. Even if those feelings of mine are gone... He was still someone important to me.

"It's fine... Everything is fine. I won't tell you to stop crying, crying is a way to let out your emotions. I will be here as long as you need it." I was rubbing at his back like you would do to a younger child. Mae would often do that to me as well whenever my emotions were out of control.

After rubbing Eli back for a while, his grip on me slowly loosen but he didn't say anything to me yet. I was going to say something again when I heard soft snoring coming from my arms.... I don't know how to react to the fact he fell asleep in my arms. And now he is putting his whole weight on my body...

"He didn't get that much sleep... It was usually for an hour or two before he woke up to make sure you were okay. Thought he would collapse due to the way he was dealing with the situation." Drucilla, who also seemed to be in the room, spoke up. She didn't look... she looked bad. It's like she didn't sleep for a month with those bags under her eyes and her hair... I just felt so sorry for her hair.