The Villainess With No Happy Endings

Chapter Nineteen - Through Eli Eyes - In Between

I am the only child of the rulers of Greenflower and it is a suffocating position. I am always being looked at by everyone and I am not allowed to show any type of weakness... My parents do love and care for me but they don't truly understand what I go through. Being a prince isn't as perfect as everyone thinks it is. I am only seen as a perfect human being.

When I started to wear female clothes everyone stopped looking at me and started whispering how horrible it was that my parents had a child like me. My parents were fine with what I was wearing, even my mom would help me get cute clothing so that I could look extra cute. This didn't help me make a lot of friends but I didn't really care about that. I was fine by myself and I didn't need anyone.

The first meeting with Aurelia was actually one-sided. I saw her from behind a wall and she was crying by herself. She looked like she was pushed onto the ground pretty badly and was bleeding from her knee. She was trying hard to stop the bleeding on her knee and cry harder whenever she put pressure onto her knee.

I could have helped her out but I didn't want to deal with that. I don't know how to deal with people who were crying so I just left her by herself. I pretend not to hear her painful and lonely cries. It wasn't anything that concerned me.

When we formally met I noticed right away she fell in love with me at first sight. Even though I was dressed in female clothing she didn't care about that. She stuck to my side during the time we were alone together and didn't look away from me as I left with my parents.

I knew my parents were curious about how I felt about her and that didn't sit well with me. But I lied and told them I liked her. If they were planning for me to marry her in the future I would be okay with it. She was someone who probably gave in easily if it meant she would get love in return. Pathetic.

We ended up meeting with each other many times after that and got 'closer'. She saw me as someone who she could trust. She would always tell me how much her father and brother dislike her. She would always wonder why nothing she did made either of them happy. I just listened to what she said with no care but gave her a false comforting smile whenever she would look at me with lonely eyes.

She was someone who had a harder life than me and I felt pleased that there was someone else having a harder time than me. I would always draw her in with false sweet words and make her trust me with no doubt in her eyes.

I felt pleased with this relationship and wanted it to last until I grew bored with this act of mine. She was someone who wanted love and I was giving it to her. I was someone who wanted to have some form of control in my life and she gave me that.

This wasn't healthy, it was toxic as hell but I didn't want to stop at all. I was fine with this never changing but one day she totally changed... She wasn't the same person looking for love and acceptance.

When I saw her after learning she was in the hospital for a few days and greeted her with tears, I only saw the coldness in her eyes. It was like she was seeing through me and realizing I was a fake. I didn't like this at all. She wasn't allowed to get rid of me. Only I was allowed to decide that, not her.

I may have gone a bit far with making sure she didn't leave my side but it worked and she still stayed by my side. But I can still see that she was looking at me with eyes that wanted to hurt me. I couldn't understand why this change had happened so quickly in her, she no longer looked at me with love in her eyes.

This made me upset for a while and I tried to help make her view of me get better but it was like she knew I was only pretending to act kindly to her. She didn't trust me at all and only looked at me with doubtful eyes. I didn't like that and I wanted it to stop...