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Nerd Alert • So This is Love

I turn to Corbyn. He's career means everything to him but is it worth dropping it all, for me? Just then Jack and Daniel walk up to us. Corbyn looks at me then looks down. I already know what he's gonna say. I felt my heart break as he said those words.

Corbyn:It's not..anything serious. But we do have feelings for each other

Jonah walks towrads me and I feel his anger rising as he gets closer to me. I tear up badly, not knowing what to do, and look up at him.

Jonah:We have a show in Minnesota in a week, you will stay home when we get there.

You:But Jonah I-

Jonah:I don't care what you have or want to say right now. You are leaving this tour bus, end of discusion. Until then, I want you and Corbyn to never speak to each other again.

You:But-

Jonah:What!? You love him? Guess what I don't care! You don't know what love is and you never will!

Jonah never fails to silence me. I have tears running down my cheeks, I look down. I felt betrayed. The boys mean everything to me and I would never want their friendship to be ruined. Especially not if it's cause of me.

You:Ok

Corbyn:Y/n you can't do this

Jonah:I don't- wait what?

You:I said ok..

Jonah:You don't care?

You:You guys..mean the world to me. And I would hate to be the reason of your guy's friendship ending..I don't want to ruin your friendship, and if me leaving the bus makes you happy then fine.

Corbyn:No no no no no y/n you can't do this I-

He comes closer to me but I step back and stop him. Tears formed in his eyes. I look at the other boys and the all look shocked.

You:I'm sorry if I ever caused any trouble..And Jonah. If it means that much to you then I'll stay at a hotel tonight and leave tomorrow morning.

Jonah:I-...y-yea..

I wipe my tears and grab the hoodie from my bunk. I hand it to Corbyn as I sniffle and try not to break down in tears. He hesitantly takes it and I go to the back room. I close the door and change back into my comfy clothes. At this point my mind is blank. All that's in my mind, is Corbyn. I start to pack my luggage as I cry quietly. An hour or two go by and I've already finished packing. I took a nap on the couch and went on my phone for a few minutes. Daniel walks in and I look at him. I take out my earbuds and sigh.

You:Yes?

Daniel:You ok?

You:I don't know

Daniel:We're all going laser tagging if you wanna join

You:I'm gonna stay here. I have to call an uber to the hotel anyways.

Daniel:Why don't you talk to Jonah?

You:Yea cause that worked out perfectly the last few times.

Daniel:Maybe it'll be different this time

You:Daniel..He's kicking me off the bus

Daniel:Ok I know that's bad but maybe you can change his mind

You:Nothing will change his mind Daniel! Nothing! He never cared about me, he doesn't want me to be happy!

Daniel:We're gonna go..I'll send you the address in case you change your mind..

You:Whatever

He leaves the room and I tear up. I cuddle my teddy bear and think. What if, he did change his mind? Imagine a world where Jonah was ok with me being happy. In my dreams. Just then Jonah walks in.

You:The number you called is currently unavailable please get your ass out the room and leave a message in the trash beep

Jonah:Very funny I-

You:No I don't forgive you

Jonah:Just listen! I'm sorry ok? Corbyn makes you happy and I'm sorry I ruined that. I just don't want you-

You:Getting hurt again. Yea I know Jonah

Jonah:You..are my only sister..the bond we have-..had..it felt like you and me against the world. I'm scared of losing you y/n. And I should've told you this before but..I was scared.

I get up and look at him, he has tears in his eyes. I've never once, in the 17 years that I've been alive, seen Jonah cry before. In this moment he was so vulnerable. I went to him and hugged him tight, he started to cry into my neck. They way he just melted into my arms. He really needed that hug. After a few minutes, he calmed down and looked at me.

Jonah:I'm so so so so sorry y/n

You:Hey its ok. What you did wasn't right but I forgive you.

Jonah:If Corbyn really makes you that happy, then I'm happy for you.

You:Well I doubt Corbyn will want to talk to me now. And does this mean I can stay on tour with you guys?

Jonah:Of course you can.

We both smile and hug again.

Jonah:Now go talk to him. He's in his bunk.

You:Ok

I nod and take a deep breath. I go to Corbyn's bunk and open the curtain. I see him faced to the wall and I hear slight sniffles. I turned him so he's laying on his back, I got in and closed the curtain. I lay on him and lay my head on his chest. He looked surprised but happy at the same time. He wrapped his arms around me and held me tight.

Corbyn:I'm so sorry

You:Hey it's ok Corbyn it's ok

Corbyn:No it's not. Now we won't be able to be together and it's all my fault.

You:Corbyn-

Corbyn:And if this is the last time that we're together, then I'll say it y/n I'll say it. I love you, I love you, I love you y/n y/l/n. I love you so much.

His words brought tears to my eyes. I smiled wide and lifted his head. I placed my hand on his cheek as he looks at me with tears rolling down his cheeks.

You:I love you too Corbyn.

In that moment nothing else mattered. I only cared about me and Corbyn. He means everything to me and I never want to lose him. So, I did want any other girl would do in this situation.