rock 'n love // alex turner

22nd

"I will be at work that day" Madison said
We were talking about the concert and what i'm going to tell him...I will talk with Alex at the end of the concert.

"Anne, honey, what happened?" Oliver asked me
"I just messed up everything Oli, i can't do anything in my life" i replied
"Don't say that, tomorrow you will see him again and i'm sure that you will make peace" he said
"Oli there is something that i didn't tell to anyone..." i said
"What? You're scaring me Anne" he said
"I think he has a girlfriend, i saw a photo" i said
"But you don't have any proof, maybe she is just a friend. You worried too much darling" he said

Maybe he was right, i'm just paranoid...Oh my god i have just a day to get ready. What if he doesn't give a shit about my apologies, i can't do that.

*next morning*

"Girls i don't feel very well" i said
What a beautiful lie Anne, i'm just scared and i'm running out...again. Idiot

"You don't fool me Annabella, i don't give a fuck, you are coming tonight" said Madison
"Anne stop, you have to come" Caryl said

I cried all the afternoon because i'm not ready to see him and mostly i'm not ready to hear new songs, i can't cry in a pub i will be fucking ridiculous. Then Caryl walked in my room:
"Anne, listen to me"
"Mh?" i said
"I will be next to you all the time okay? And if you need i will come with you to Alex but you guys have to talk" she said
"Thank you C" i said and she hugged me because she knows when i'm scared and she knows what to do with me.

"Okay girls, I have to go now. See you later" said Madison as she left home
I started to get dress and do my make up, in less than 30 minutes we have to be there. Shit it's happening...

"Anne are you ready? we have to go" Caryl yelled from downstairs
"Yes i'm coming" i said. I looked at myself in the mirror, i was holding my tears...i don't wanna ruin my make up!

"Here she is" said Caryl as i walked downstairs
"Caryl you will be next to me, right?" i asked for the second time
"Always" she said

Madison sent us a text and she told me that the boys were already there, but in the stage so i don't have to panicked.
When we arrived, they were trying their instruments. Seeing Alex was really weird but he looks amazing as always...here is the tears again. Go Annabella!

Caryl and I took place in the bar with Oliver and Madison was under the stage, there was a lot of people and they didn't see us...actually we were hidden, and from the stage they can't see the bar, but we can see them. I just thought that it was a great idea.

They started with old songs, when they played I Bet That You Look Good On The Dancefloor a lot of memories came back to me, and seeing that a lot of people was singing makes me really happy because they deserve this.

I just remember what Alex used to tell me, that it was his dream since he was a little kid and i always told him that he would make it and i was right.

I can see Madison dancing and having fun, even Oliver is singing here next to me and a little voice in my head is singing too, i know these songs very well because we always sang in the kitchen or at the shop.

"Thank you for being here and thank you Oliver to invited us today. Now we're going to play a few new songs and i hope that you'll enjoy them" Alex said

"It looks like he is searching for someone in the crowd" said Caryl
but then he continued:
"This song is called Why'd you only call me when you're high"

Shit.