rock 'n love // alex turner

23rd

Shit, i know very well these words...

Now it's three in the mornin' and I'm tryin' to change your mind
Left you multiple missed calls and to my message, you reply
"Why'd you only call me when you're high?

He was using our last conversation to make a song, i don't understand if he still cares or he just uses our conversations as inspiration.

"Anne but isn't that the message you sent him?" asked Caryl
"Yes, i don't know what he's doing" i said
"But you're going to talk with him right?" Oliver asked
"Oli i don't know, let me breathe please" i said

This thing is confusing me, a lot and he still seems like he's looking for someone.
I admit that the song was great but I don't know whether to laugh or cry, all this is crazy and too much for me...

"We still have some new songs for you, this one is very important to me and i want to see you with your hands up. Ladies and Gentlemen this is 505" Alex said

After hearing those words, Caryl immediately turned towards me and I totally panicked. My eyes filled with tears listening to just the first 3 seconds of the song.

"Anne...is everything okay?" Caryl asked
but she didn't even have time to get an answer because I ran to the bathroom crying like a fucking baby and she followed me.
I knew it. I knew it that i would react like this.

But I crumble completely when you cry

He used to told me these words when i cried in front of him
"Anne please. I can't look at you like this" Caryl said
"C i'm so fucking stupid, I had a great person with me but because of my shitty character I lost him" i said
"Anne you could have him back! You don't even try" she said
"Caryl, i think he has a girlfriend" i said
She looked at me with a weird face and then she said:
"Are you stupid? Do you think he would write about you if he has a girlfriend?" she said
Well it makes sense...

"I don't know Caryl" i said crying
"No Anne, you're just scared" she said and then a group of drunk girls arrived and one of them said:

"Hey girl why are you crying? Whatever happened you should go outside and watch these cool guys playing"
"She is the girl' Caryl replied
"What?" the girl asked
"She's the girl the songs talk about!" Caryl said
"Oh shit, you're so lucky. And why are you here?" she asked
"We're not together anymore" i said
"Well go outside and take him back because i think he's fucking in love with you my girl" she said

She's not all wrong...i mean even Caryl is right. He wouldn't talk about me if he has a girlfriend right?
"Thank you..." i said but i didn't know her name
"Olivia. My name is Olivia" she said

I hugged her and then I ran out. We sat down at a table and at that moment Alex saw me and he looked surprised and then the song,"505",finished. I really like that song.

"I hope you are not bored. Now we have another song and if you want you can dance. I wanna see you dance!" said Alex
And i saw Madison screaming like a die-hard fan, she was so funny!

"This song is called Arabella, hope you'll like it" he said and then they started play.

Oh my God it was for me, another song for me...and finally it wasn't sad, i swear i couldn't cry again

She's got a Barbarella silver swimsuit

Shit he remembers my swimsuit, that day was magical. I remember that Caryl threw me in the water and i thought that i would never kiss him and then he kissed me. Fuck i'm so in love, that's embarrassing

Asking if I can have one of those
Organic cigarettes that she smokes

He always made fun of me because of my cigarettes, and now they are part of a song.

And then he turned to pick up his guitar and in that moment i got up and walked over Madison, under the stage, and he turned again to do his solo and he saw me. I was very close and he smiled so i smiled at him too. He is just great

When the song finished i noticed that a lot of people was looking at me, i think they connect the dots but then Madison said:
"What? What are you guys looking at" and they looked away.

They played another song called 'Brick by Brick' and we were dancing and it reminds me of the night that we met them, Alex was staring at me all the time just like he was doing now

"Alright, now just another one. It's called Suck it and See" Alex said

Wow this song was beautiful, now i'm sure...i have to have him back, later i'm going to talk with him i promise.

How I often wonder where you are
You have got that face that just says
"Baby, I was made to break your heart"

When i heard these words i simply smiled at him. It hurts because i didn't mean to hurt him, he's an amazing soul but i didn't understand.