MINE

Dinner with Bam

LALISA'S POV

When you feel like you're in love, are you really in love or is it just a feeling? How can someone be so sure of their feelings for someone if they have never felt anything like it before, but what's weird is that how the feeling is so familiar. That's what I have been feeling since I met Jennie. When I laid my eyes on her, I suddenly felt this familiarity like I've known her for so long but I just shrugged it off. However, the more I get to know her and spend more time with her, the more I felt like I have been missing this feeling for so long which is absolutely weird because I don't remember ever falling in love with someone let alone meeting Jennie before.

Maybe I'm just thinking too much about it, but I just can't shake off this feeling. Like how the hell am I supposed to stop this? Every time she's around I feel like I'm the safest person on earth, and I am not even exaggerating. The way she wraps her arms around me, the way she holds my hands tightly like she never wants to let go, and just the way she looks at me with so much softness in her eyes like I'm the only good thing in her life. How am I supposed to stop feeling all these emotions when she just makes me feel so much and so good about myself.

"Hey? Are you okay? You're zoning out." Bambam asks me while looking at me seriously.

I am here at the restaurant with my brother right now. After watching a movie with my friends earlier, he texted me to get ready and he'll pick me up. The gang left right after we finished the movie and an hour later my brother came.

I smiled at him. "Yeah. I'm good. I'm just... thinking about some things." I said as I started eating again.

"What is it?" I look at him again and I know that he's worried. He's always been like this with me. I can't move slightly and they'd be worried about me.

I chuckled at him. "It's nothing." I waved my hands at him telling him to just let it go.

"Lali. I am not those people out there who will tell you, 'Okay. Just tell me whenever you're comfortable.' Nope. I refused to be that person for you. I am your brother. You tell me what worries you but it's still up to you if you want me to help you or not. It's always been like that so please don't change it now." He seriously said while looking at me like I don't have any choice but to tell him.

I took a deep breath. 'Damn. Am I really about to tell him about Jennie? My brother? He would definitely flip out.' Admitting it out loud and just thinking about it are two different things. Telling people about it means I am acknowledging whatever this is and I don't want to acknowledge it. I have always been clear that I don't want to commit myself to anyone because then it's a whole different responsibility for me and I am not ready for that. I don't think I'll ever be ready for that.

"LISA. You're zoning out. Again. Seriously, what's wrong? Did something happen when I was gone? Did someone bother you? Tell me who is it, I'll make sure they regret whatever they did to you." There he is again with his protectiveness.

I laugh at his protectiveness. "Oppa, relax. Nothing happen when you were gone. It's just... okay I'm about to tell you something but please don't freak out." He just looks at me and signaled me to continue. "I...," I gulped and took a deep breath before I look at him straight into his eyes, asserting to him that we are about to have a serious conversation. "I like someone." I softly said. 'I like Jennie.' I felt my heart soften at that thought.

"W-what?" He ridiculously looks at me.

I let out a small smile. "I like someone,  Oppa," I said as I smile widely. "I know... I know that I haven't been here for long—"

"One month." He cut me off. 'Here we go.' I grinned at that. "Almost two months. And now, you're telling me you like someone? Maybe it's just a little crush princess." He obviously can't believe it.

"No. I've been thinking about it, been trying to understand these emotions and I came into a conclusion that I do like her—" Damn it why does he keep on cutting me off? Hayst.

"HER? It's a she. Damn little sis, you will never stop surprising me you?" He is smiling widely at me. Yes, I shocked him by the information that I like girls as well but he didn't even react negatively. "Now, I know you're gonna ask me if it's okay. I don't care about that princess. You love who you love, I don't have a say on that. What I am worried about is if they are deserving of you. Who is this lucky person who got your attention?"

I sigh at his excitement. 'I thought he'll be mad.' I chuckled at that thought. "Let me talk, will you?" He bobbed his head and sign for me to continue like he promised not to cut me off anymore. "Like I said before you cut me off," I raised my brows at him as he gave me a peace sign and grinned. I rolled my eyes as I continued. "I haven't been here for long but that doesn't explain how I like this person. I realize that it's not about how long I've known her rather it's about how long will I want to be with her. I may not be so sure of a lot of things but I sure as hell am so sure about her." I said as I teared up a little.

He softly smiled at me after hearing that. "You're growing up little sis. I can see that you're sincere and that you really like her just the in the way you talk about her. I'm not against it or anything, no, I just want you to be careful okay? Don't cry now. It's normal to feel so much about someone." He said as he wiped my tears. 'It just feels different when you finally admit it ya know. It feels even more real now than before.' I sigh at that thought. How the hell am I gonna act normal with her now? "Who is this person anyway?"

"You probably know her. She's kinda famous in school."

He frowned at that. "Well, there is a lot of famous people in school." He said with full of sarcasm in his voice. "Just tell me her name. I wanna know."

I rolled my eyes at him as I softly mumble her name. "It's Jennie."

He coughs at that. He drunk his water. Tsk. overreacting. "JENNIE KIM? YOU MEAN THE JENNIE KIM?" He exclaimed that made the people around us glance at our table.

"Bam, what the hell? Quiet down, you're embarrassing me." I said after apologizing to the people around us. This guy seriously.

"Sorry. sorry," He apologizes to me and the people around too. "Damn lalisa. Is there any more surprising things that you're gonna tell me? Cause I sure as hell am gonna brace myself now."

"Shut up. What's so shocking about it being Jennie?" I hissed at him.

"Lisa. Jennie... she doesn't talk to anyone other than her friends, and she has like, three friends, her cousin, and brother. She doesn't give any attention to other people. I've seen her around the campus and she's aloof. How the hell did you like her? Cause I'm sure as hell it's not about the looks cause that's not you." He carefully explained to me.

I just actually found out earlier that they have two more friends that attended the seminar as well together with Jennie's brother. And that Jisoo is Jen's cousin on her father's side.

"She's... different with me." I shyly said as I look away.

"Different, how?" He's curious now.

"She gives me attention. She took care of me and she's... sweet with me." I know I am blushing so hard right now. "Just stop asking, will you? I like her and that's that." I hissed at him and pointedly look at him cause I am getting embarassed now.

He just smirked at me. "Well, have you told her?" The question froze me. 'Am I even planning of doing so?' "I know what you're thinking. Lali, it comes from you already, she's different. It's gonna be fine. Not everyone is gonna hurt you."

"I know. I'm just... scared." I sighed.

He was about to tell me something and I know we're about to go that way  so I looked at him, implying to stop whatever he was about to say. I don't wanna talk about that. My mood suddenly went down so he just smiled at me a little and took me home.