MINE

You're making me feel crazy

LALISA'S POV

'She's mine.'

'She's mine.'

'She's mine.'

Those words just keep repeating in my mind. 'Did she just... did she just owned me in front of everyone?' That thought made me blushed so hard. I looked at our clasped hands while she's still dragging me to nowhere. My heart is still beating so fast, I can't believe that I was just single and worrying about how to approach her just five minutes ago and now I'm suddenly not, and I am being dragged by the person who is supposed to be my girlfriend now. At least in everyones' eyes, we are, I mean she just straight up announced in the whole cafeteria that I am hers.

I was awakened from my thoughts when she opened the door and let me in first, as soon as we're inside she immediately luck the door which made me gulp because of nervousness.

"Where are we? Why are we here?" I ask as I looked around. 'There's a secret room in this school? I didn't know this exists.' I shook my head at that thought. I shouldn't be so surprised since I am in front of the richest person in Korea and around Europe. She just continues to stare at me which made me cautious so I immediately looked away.

I saw in my peripheral vision how she took a deep breath. "Until when are you gonna avoid me?"

I wasn't able to answer right away not because I didn't know what to say but because of how she sounds so vulnerable when asking me that.

I was just about to say something when she started talking again. "I don't understand Lisa. I mean I know what I did was wrong. Kissing you without asking for your permission so I tried to talk to you but you kept running away from me." I saw how she tried herself from yelling at me. 'How can she still care about me when she's this mad at me? I must be the luckiest person to be liked by someone like her.' She took a deep breath. "I mean... you kissed me back so I don't know what went wrong that you had to walk away from me like that."

"Jen... please let me talk?" I carefully ask.

"So what? You can reject me? Tell me that you don't like me, that you were just caught up in the moment? If you're just gonna say that then no, thank you. You don't have to say it because you've already shown me." She tried to stop her tears from falling.

I remember what rosé told me before. When after watching a movie, I asked her how can someone be so hard as Jennie cause we were both crying because of a movie but Jennie was just emotionlessly sitting there.

"Jennie is cold. She doesn't cry. The only time I saw her let out a few tears was when her dog died that her mom gifted her—" She was interrupted by Jisoo.

"That's why when she cries, that just means it's truly hurting her. She doesn't cry out of happiness."

What have I done? I avoided her because of the thought that maybe I was just being used but when I realized that she would never do that to me, I still resist going to her because of the terrifying thought that I might cost her pain. But now, here she is, trying so hard to stop herself from crying... because of me.

"Jen—"

"No, you don't have to say anything. It's not your fault that I like you. It's not your fault that I thought it would be a good idea to show you just how much I do because for the first time I don't mind being myself with someone." She harshly wiped her tears away and look at me in the eyes with so much pain. 'I'm sorry.' "For the first time since I lost my mom, I put myself out there. For you. I showed you who I am, someone that no one knows existed. You made me feel like it was okay to put myself out there and when I did you run away from me." She took a deep breath as I took a step forward to her. "You're making me feel crazy!"

I held her cheek and wiped her tears away. "I like you too." I softly said.

She was stunned for a moment and immediately took a step back. I got scared because of that. "W-what?"

"I was just scared, Jen. I avoided you not because I don't like you... because I do. God knows just how much I do. I just got scared, Jennie. I know you already know that maybe I was scared that I thought you were using me. But on top of all that, I was scared of hurting you." I held her hands. "I got a thing for hurting the people that I love, you know. And look what I'm doing to you now, and to think we're not even together yet. I was just scared of hurting you." My voice cracked at that.

"Then you shouldn't have. I've been scared my whole life, Lisa. Since I lost my mom, I isolated myself from everyone, even from my own family. When my mom died, I thought I couldn't bear to feel another pain from losing someone I love so I avoided them like they weren't a part of my life. I got scared that everyone would leave me too." She let go of my hand and held my cheeks as she wiped my tears away too. "But I am tired of getting scared. I am tired of pushing people away. I am tired of not taking risks. I love you, Lisa. Yes, you heard it right. I love you. I don't care if you'll hurt me someday. You're worth all the pain. You are worth it, my sunshine." She softly said with a smile as she looks at me with so much love.

'She loves me. Someone loves me, truly does love me.' I shed a few more tears at that thought.

We stared at the eyes of each other a little longer before she leans in and her lips finally met mine. She kissed me with so much passion. She wraps her arms around my neck as I held her waist and pull her closed. She bites my lips asking for entrance and I did. We kissed for a little more longer before pulling away because of the lack of oxygen. We both smiled at each other as I lean in, I saw her closed her eyes with a small smile playing on her lips before I kissed her forehead.

'I promise to live my life only for you, my love.'