Suicidal Child ||tpn x bsd x dazai!reader||

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A/n: this is going to be a long chapter cause i want to end the Dark era in this chapter only

Ray pov:

(Random date) 2041, Odasaku;

I walked to my usual drinking station... i saw Y/n sitting there "Hey Odasaku" Y/n said while striking the glass waking up the cat "Sorry, Sensei " Y/n said making me curious " You're calling a cat Sensei?" i asked her " Doesn't he look wise? He even gives up his seat when I have guests." she responded "Anyway, you have to hear this, Odasaku! There was a shootout today." she said looking at me. "Oh?" i said "I was trading shots in a Plantation 350764 block where the Mama tried to use weapons to break free with a lively crew armed with a machine-gun equipped truck!" she told me cheerfully and i listened "That's quite the weapon. And what's the deal with your new injuries? Are those from this shootout?" i asked her while grabbing my drink "I had to relieve myself in the midst of it, then I fell in a ditch because I was in such a hurry." she said while leaning against her hand. "I see. When you rush, it's hard to avoid that." i said " Indeed it is." she replied. 'Her name is Y/n, and executive in the HQ ' "Oh, and as for the others, they ran away bawling after I set a trap and roughed them up a bit. They're a pretty worthless bunch. Thanks to them, sweet death eluded me." she said...

I was in shocked at what i just read but also chuckled that she was a suicidal maniac since birth. But i still had a doubt that she always use to be in this orphanage how was a plant executive. After a while of thinking it clicked me faster than it should have.... She always used to go some where at times like when we use to play together or be in the house she used to be in a different place what a sly. No wonder she figured me out the first day. Then i went back to reading the book....

' There's a saying among the Plant, The biggest misfortune for Y/n's enemies is that they are Y/n's enemies. Her list of deeds writ in darkness and blood, is enough to make even those in the Plant tremble. She was practically born to be one of them.' "I wonder if there's a simple, sure way to commit suicide somewhere." Y/n said "I doubt it.." i replied "Odasaku?" she called me making m look towards her "Man fears death, but is also drawn to it at the same time. Death is endlessly consumed by men in cities and in literature. It is a single event in one's life that none may reverse. That is what I desire." she said while looking at me "So on that note, barkeep, may I have a cup of detergent?" She said "We don't have any" he replied "Oh fine" she said while moving around the chair "Then how about a detergent-based cocktail?" she asked again "We don't have any" he replied again. "I guess there's nothing you can do about it." i said 

 'This idiot always thinks about suicide' i thought and continued reading it...

"Odasaku-san, you should've called her out." we both heard a voice "It's because you never do that Y/n-san goes off the rails." the man said "Ango!" Y/n exclaimed "You should call her out with about the force of a hammer hitting the back of her head." Ango said to me "I have work today tomato juice please" he asked the barkeep "It's been a while. Are you back from a job?" Y/n asked "It was a bad day. It took way too much time to check the merchandise. After haggling until eight, all I have to show for my efforts for a few of them. This concludes about 74% of transactions for this quarter." he said and i as listening the conversation 'His name is Sakaguchi Ango. He is one of the Plant's intelligence officers. Almost all critical and classified information pass through Ango when communicating with demons and the humans under them. His head's full of intel on the Plants that's worth more than its weight in gold. There are as many enemy Plantations from the demons as there are stars in the sky who dream of torturing him for intel. It's a job that requires considerable grit.' "So Ango fuzzed his job, too." Y/n said making me look at her "Fuzzed?" Ango asked "Yeah, we're fuzz-buddies...Come to think of it, it's been a long time since we first became drinking buddies. But I've never heard you complain about work, Odasaku. " she said "It'd only bore you to hear my stories as the lowest-ranking member of the organization." i replied "There you go being secretive again." she complained "What'd you do this time?" she asked me "I punished a demon kid stealing from a shop in a shopping district that pays us protection money. I checked on the special merchandise list to help a officer. Lastly, I disposed of a dud that was found behind one of the Plants offices." i told her as she made sparkling eyes "Hey, Odasaku. Let's change jobs. I want to dispose of duds, too!" she said with sparkling eyes "You wouldn't be able to handle it." Ango said "Yeah, you'd get blown up." i said agreeing with him "Blown up? Hey, did you hear that, Ango? He said blown up. i'd get blown up " she said dramatically