✨BROKEN BUT BEAUTIFUL✨

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Okay... So finally I am here.. 😩
I had no courage to come here... From that day I was trying to run from everything... I was not checking any dm any mssg....cause I myself was totally broken...i had no courage to console anyone... That time was litterely worst time off my life...But we have to live for our family...🙂

Still can't able to believe, that our siddharth is not wid us anymore.... But he will be in our hearts, in our memories forever..❤

I know this is not enough for our broken/stubborn heart.. Which only wants him... But we can't do anything... This is not in our hands... We can only take this pain wid shut mouth..🙂The way we had attached wid him.. That was something else.. That is the reason off our this condition.....

Anyways Strighting to the point... I was not well since 2 months... And quite busy as well... But I really wanted to write this Story... I had so many thoughts about this story... That's why I was not writing it, cause I knew I had no time, and if I will write in hurry, it would have got ruined..

But now I have no courage to write further.... And may be I will not write in future too.... I know many off you wanted me to write.... But I m sorry... I can't... I just can't...

I have heard that time heals everything.... Haha... Such a joke... Cause I m still in that zone, where my heart is not accepting that he left us.. He left his naaz here.. All alone.. 💔

I have deleted my music playlist... His pictures from my phone.... My insta... Wattpad. Everything.. And the reason... I can't explain... I didn't know that I m this much weak.. Anyways let's not get into this... Cause that feeling was suffocating, ugly, and worst.

He was my happiness, and now I m not able to happy from anything.. My life has became just like that black n white screen... And the sad part is that i have to smile, for my family.. But deep down in my heart i m breaking bit by bit..

My friends.. They told me.. Come on yaar he was just a celeb... You should move on.. You just can't suffocate yourself like this... You have your own life, your future ahed... What about your life...? Why r u doing this.. You really need to move on...

Haha or meko ye sb sun k gussa bhi nahi aaya... Pata ni kyu, ab na kisi se ladne ka man krta h... Na hee jwab dene ka... Qki ab kuch v krke hume wo cheez ni mil skti jiski hume sbse jyada jrurt hai... Uss pyaaar ki depth sirf hume hee pata hai...

Kabhi kabhi pretend krte krte v thak jati hu mai... Ki yaar bs.. Ab nhi ho payega.. Bas dill h yaar... Etta hee seh skta haii... Ab aor fake ni kr skte... Pr Fir family yaad aajaaati hai... Kya kismat h humari.. Chain se ro v ni skte🙂

Aisa lgta h jaise, andr se kuch mar sa gaya ho... Aor shyd wo dill ka ek hissa hee tha.. Jo wo apne sath le gaya...💔
Aor sbse jyada dar ess baat se lgta h ki ab kabhi ess zindagi mein sidharthh ni milega😭 kabhi apne bure se bure sapne mein v ni socha tha ki aisa hoga💔

Abhi v bas yahi lgta hai.. Ki wo kahi se aa jaye, aor ye dard khtm kr de... But then ye reality zor se thappad marti hai..😩Ab hume ess dard k sath hee sari zindgi jeena hoga..

So this is broken but not beautiful... This is ugly.... 😭

Whyyyy sidharthh....? Just whyyyy....?
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