If you love me, don't let me go (Brendon Urie Fanfiction)

Chapter Twenty Two

It was the next day. Meaning it was the day that I meet Cole and the day before the concert. I woke up to the rude awakening of my head throbbing out of control. I tried to shake it off by taking some Tylenol to help calm it down.

I put on cute outfit and curled my hair all pretty. Even if we were just going out for lunch, I wanted Cole to notice me. Maybe it was the spite of rage in me that wants to get over Brendon. I mean, yeah, Cole is pretty hot but, I just don't have this feeling for him. I just want to hurt Brendon. Just like he did with me by not coming to find me or anything.

    I got in my car and looked at the same text Cole sent me for the address. 12 Main Street Down the first block. I put my phone down and headed off.
 
    On the way there, I had to stop on a red light. I pushed the brake and waited. While I was waiting, my phone buzzed. It was Liz trying to call me.

   "Hey, what are you doing today?" She said.

    "Oh, just going to meet up with Cole," I said.

    "You better not be! Didn't you hear the radio yesterday? Brendon talked about you!"

    "Yeah and the first thing that he said was that once he wrote the song, he felt was free. I held him captive and now he's finally free. I was the weight on his shoulders trying to pull him down, I don't want him to go through with that so I'm done," I said, anger bubbling up in my throat.

    "Oh, shut up. Since I'm your best friend, I'm going to tell it to you straight. After he said all that, he talked about how he missed you and that he was sad that he'll never see you again. He wants you, Alex. Now quit being dumb and take the chance!"

    "No!" I yelled. I took a deep breath, "I'm going to see Cole. Now, I have to go. Bye."

    "Fine, be that way. But you know that the in the end, I'm right," she said.

   By this time, I was angry. No, not angry, furious. I didn't want anyone to talk about Brendon or his band. I just wanted to be with Cole, and that's just what I'll do.

   I got out of my car to find a patient person waiting on me outside.

    "You ready?" He asked with a smile.

    "Sure," I said, wrapping my arms around him.

    I wanted him to want me and I knew just the thing.

    We sat down and talked. I would try to do little cute things while he would just gaze at me. It's like what he use to do. He would look at me like he would look at a fancy canvas. He always made me feel guilty of about myself and that's what he was doing now.

    "I've missed you so much, Al," he sighed.

   "I've missed you too," I said with a smile.
 
     "Well this have been fun, but I have to go. Do you want me to walk you back to your car?" Cole asks.

    "I would love that."

   We walked out the door and went over to my car. I stood there beside the door and with me was the awkward silence. I had to break it.

    "Cole, I wish I never left you," I admitted. That was how I truly felt, right?

    "Why?"

    "Because maybe I wouldn't of had other people come and leave me again," I said stepping closer.

    "I really missed you."

    "Um, you want to hang out some more?" He said scratching the back of his head.

   "Love to," I said.

   All at once I was kissing him. His hand was on my cheek and my hands were on his jacket. I felt nothing. No love, no guilt. Nothing. Maybe what I felt before for him was all gone, maybe my love was for someone else.  There was no spark in him or me. He was nothing anymore, just as I am to Brendon.

   I stepped back and smiled.

   "I think I've missed that too," He said.

   "Me too," I lied.

    "I want to see you more, Al."

   "Okay, just not tomorrow. Maybe Monday?" I said.

    "Okay." And then he kissed me again.

    The second kiss felt a little better, but still nothing.  At least he could help me get over Brendon.. That's all I want right now.

  I said goodbye and left for my apartment. What am I going to do about tomorrow, I thought. The words and thoughts were crashing into my head like a river. Everything was flowing fast through my brain except one thing. One thing that went as slow as it could go, and that was what was I going to do if I saw Brendon. Would it be a walk down memory lane, or will it just be a casual encounter? Hopefully tomorrow will bring the answer I'm needing.