Devils | Aki Hayakawa x Reader

Part Twelve : Why Her and Not Me

I woke up sweating, no tears were shed, and I knew I hadn't screamed.

I chose not to bother Aki, he was most likely pissed at me, for obvious reasons of course. I was in a way pissed at him as well, though that often washed away after a short period of time.

I wondered if I had made it too obvious, maybe he could see through my desperate attempt to make him jealous.

He had that thing with Himeno, maybe he was uninterested, uninterested enough for the plan to have some sort of success.

Things were so fucked.

I felt as if I couldn't advance my progress with Hayakawa, maybe this was the farthest we'd go.

I'm a devil man, he's a human, hes built his life upon killing someone just like me, he lives for it, how would we work.

By now I knew that I was in love with him?

It devastated me, my thoughts on the matter of me and Hayakawas relationship. I hoped that I would be proven wrong, I hoped that things would work out.

I was in a slum, and it would slowly go downhill from then on.

The Katana Arc Begins...

[A/N] First off sorry about the lack of TW's I forgot if I had said that I would keep posting them or not, also on the side note I don't like how sad this arc is so i'm skipping it and this is a sign that if you haven't read this far then stop reading this ff for spoiler reasons GO read the manga plss.

Sorry i feel as if this is like a personal way to vent about stuff and complain abt the book and i make these a/n messages so weird but bear w me ok ... enjoy

I didn't even know what to feel, everything had happened so fast.

Before I knew it, people simply began to drop dead like flies.

The gun devil was on the move, and I couldn't help but worry about everyone, mainly Hayakawa, I hoped that he wouldn't become filled with rage.

I hoped that he would keep his cool.

I feared that change would be approaching soon, the kind of change that I didn't want.

I stood awkwardly in the parking lot, staring at the red cross, why did it have to be this way.

I had never wanted Himeno to die, I never even wished it at all, and yet, here I am.

I'm the one living and not her.

Her death had nearly gone unnoticed, it was quick and forgettable. I wished that she could have had a more tragic end, one that would be told for years to come.

I wondered what would have happened if I had died in her place, the tragedy would be kept to a minimum, would anyone really bat an eye?

I sighed, removing these kinds of thoughts from my mind.

I had come to bring a meal for Aki, since I was a dumbass.

I held the warm bento in my hands, I wondered if Aki even liked curry, would he eat it if he knew it was from me?

I approached the doors of the hospital, feeling shaky as the doors opened.

I walked up to the woman at the desk, her hair kept in a neat bun.

"I'm here to see Aki Hayakawa, Im with the Bureau." I said, holding up my badge for reassurance, she probably wouldn't believe me without it. A girl with dog ears working for the Bureau? How preposterous, I bet she'd say something like that.