Devils | Aki Hayakawa x Reader

Part Twenty-Six : When You Die

Aki and I were huddled together closely in the second bed. I was freezing, though I was thankful that Hayakawa could warm me up.

Our hands remained interlaced, while he protected me in his arms.

I didn't want to wake up, it would be perfectly fine if we had just died like this. It would mean that we could die together.

Always feeling each other.

Feeling one's warmth.

Flesh touching.

The sun began to poke through the curtains, causing Aki to stir. 

He woke up, and I pretended to be asleep.

He kissed me and got up for breakfast. My heart melted at the notion.

...

I never left Aki's side, not through the bus ride, not through the boat ride, not even on the way back from the train.

I couldn't let him leave my sights, my mind was in disarray. I had somehow led myself to believe that I could prevent his death.

Maybe if I was there, I could change his fate.

Maybe his death didn't have to be inevitable.

I could kill the culprit, or take his place. I could sacrifice myself.

We eventually made it back to the apartment, the familiar smell reached me when we approached the door.

Nyako sat in front of us, she stared at us with cold eyes.

"You miss me kitty." Power shouted, she rushed the cat. Causing Nyako to get startled.

I plopped on the couch, the same old comforting feeling came rushing back to me. How many memories had been made on this couch? 

...

"Hayakawa!" I shouted, he had returned from the super market. He didn't let me go with him, he said I was being too clingy.

It hurt me, but he had reason to say it. I couldnt piss him off right now, otherwise he would leave me.

I sat at the table, across from Aki this time. 

He had made curry and chicken katsu, which was much nicer than the usual meals that we had. 

Would this be our last meal then? Would he really die that quickly...

"It's delicious." I said, my tone was cold.

"You don't sound too enthusiastic." 

"Why should I be, you've been acting different for a while now. It's seriously concerning me." I muttered, I froze shortly after. 

Shit.

"You're right, I've been acting strangely. My whole life I've been preparing to kill him. That devil. And now I've come to find out that it was all some lie." Aki said, his tone was harsh. I felt like crying. I had angered him.

Would he leave me now?

Aki and I both stood up quickly.

"I can't deal with you."

"Neither can I!" I shouted, I exited the apartment. 

"What do we do now?" Denji asked.

"We trash the place." Power said, she let out a wicked cackle.

...

I sat and watched as the koi fish swam effortlessly through the cold water. I wondered if their life was even a fraction as complicated as mine. 

I had to apologize to Aki.

I didn't want him to leave. I didn't want him to die.

These past few weeks were like hell, every day I waited.

It made me smile knowing that Aki lived another day, but it kills me knowing that that means his death is just around the corner.

I hated this uncertainty, why couldn't I just live a normal life. I confess, he dates me, and maybe we break up, or maybe he proposes.

I wished that I could just settle down with Aki, we could have kids, or none if he didn't want any. We could grow old together, and reminisce on the good ol days. 

We could host house parties, Denji and Power could be there, and we could all talk on for hours about our lives.

Why didn't it go like that for me. Why was I screwed over twice.

Was god after me? Was my lack of faith a punishment?

Was there even a god...

There couldn't be one in a world like this. Maybe the devils had killed god, and now they flooded our society.

The gateway to hell had been opened.