Thing Of The Past |Dabi x Reader|

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Later that evening, Dabi once again was on rout to Y/n's home. This time, he would have to be as cautious as ever now that Hawks was in the picture. If he had the time, he would seek Hawks out himself and just kill the bastard for getting in his way. But Y/n was Dabi's top priority. This time, he took a rout that he hadn't taken in a while. It would take him longer to get there, but that could be a good thing. If Hawks was already there, it could give Dabi some time to arrive just as Hawks might be leaving. And if he is still there, well, Dabi could just use him to blow off some steam. He's been itching to burn up that feathered freak for some time now.

But to his surprise, and slight disappointment, Hawks was not there. And yet, Dabi would not go any closer to the house. Not because he was cautious of Hawks, but because he had no idea what he would say to Y/n? He had broken her heart and now he was just showing up like nothing had happened? She wouldn't go for that. Dabi sighed, running his hand through his inky black hair. "At this fucking point, I should just come clean." He muttered. Then quickly dismissed the thought. "No. Even if I did tell her, nothing would change. I can change my name and identity as much as I want, but it still won't change the fact that I am a killer." Dabi begins to approach the house. 

"She would have never been safe by my side. Even if I had stayed the same, she would have gotten hurt eventually. It was only a matter of when..."

Dabi stopped in his tracks when he saw Y/n leaving through the front door. He begun to question this until he noticed she was in her work clothes. 'She never works this late.' Dabi thought as he quietly got closer. Then again, how would he know? He never asked about her job before. With a deep breath Dabi approached her from behind. "Hey, Doll."

Y/n gasps sharply as she turned to face him. Her shock turned into anger as she noticed just who was in front of her. "What do you want?" She muttered. Dabi, putting on the best chill front he could, answered smoothly. "Oh you know, just taking an evening stroll. What about you?" Y/n glared at him before turning back to walk away. "The silent treatment huh? That's fair." Dabi chuckled as he followed her, much to Y/n's annoyance. 

"Can you not?" She asked, picking up the pace. "I think I'm making it pretty obvious that I don't want to speak with you." 

"Doesn't what you just said count as speaking to me?" Asked Dabi smugly. 

Y/n did not face him again, rather, she just flipped him off and kept walking. 

"Come on, just for a second Doll." Dabi matched her pace. Y/n didn't say a word, she even considered following Hawks' advice and called him right then and there, just so she wouldn't have to hear Dabi's voice. "Ok ok, don't talk. Just listen alright?" Y/n, finally fed up, turned and spoke to Dabi with a stern hateful tone.

"I don't have to listen to a damn thing from you! Just leave me alone!" She raised her hand to smack him, but he caught her hand. Before Y/n could recuperate, Dabi pulled her in close. "Too bad. Cause you're gonna." He said sternly. 

"That Hakai villain who nearly killed you, has it out for me. And now he knows your face. So if he finds out what you were to me, you could be on his hit list next." Y/n stared right through Dabi as he spoke, but that last bit...how dare he say that? "What I was to you?" Y/n jerks her hand away. "What I was to you!?" 

"Y/n-" 

"I wasn't anything to you!" Y/n yells. "All you ever did was use me! You never cared about me! You never considered how I felt! So don't pretend like you loved me when really, you just needed someone to fulfil your needs!" 

"Y/n please-"

"We were never anything...I don't know exactly what we had, but it was nothing good...I hated it so much. Do you have any idea what it feels like, to love someone you know, will never love you back?" Y/n's voice lowered from a yell. "Dabi, I really did care about you. At times I thought I didn't but the more you left, the longer you weren't with me, I would never feel right. It was because I missed you. And whenever you did show up, even if it wasn't for long, it made me feel...well, happy I guess?" She continued.

"I missed your warmth, as cruel as it was. Because it reminded me so much of him...but he was never as cruel. Not once was he ever like you. So, I figured, if I was going to be used...why not use you? So I could pretend that just for a moment, he was still here..." 

Dabi didn't say a word, he just let her talk as he felt his heart become heavy with regret. 

"But I never felt more dirty whenever I did that. So, I tried to love you for you. And I did. I managed to fall in love with someone who treats me like trash. How stupid of me, right?" She laughed weakly. "I really thought there was something more to you, for a while Dabi. But it turns out, you're nothing but a cruel, cold hearted villain. That's all you ever were. And I was an idiot to let you in." 

When she finished, there was a long deep silence between the two. Dabi didn't disagree with her, everything Y/n said about him was true. Except, the part about him not loving her. That was the furthest thing from the truth. Dabi did love her, and he was cruel to not tell her sooner. But he knew the consequences of loving someone. It happened before, and it's happening again. 

"...Ok." Dabi finally spoke. "I understand. But please, if you would do just one more thing for me, just do this one simple thing. Ok?" Y/n didn't answer him. "Just...promise me, you'll be ok. Stay safe for me Y/n. Please." Still, no response.

Dabi turned from her and began to walk away when he heard Y/n speak. "Goodbye Dabi." The next thing he heard were her footsteps getting further and further away, leaving Dabi alone in the middle of the street. Warm bright red blood ran down the scars of Dabi's eyes, his heart felt like it was sinking in a pit of despair. And he only had himself to blame. 

"...I fucked up."