Hearts and Blood (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 17

ALEXANDRÍA GIOVANNA

Gabi na dito at abala kami ni Chandra sa mga papeles na ginagawa namin. Nandito kami sa loob ng opisina ni Papa dito sa bahay. Nagpasalamat ako kay Nanay Aida na may dalang dalawang tasa ng kape. Nag inat muna ako ng kamay at humikab.

"Giovanna, may tanong ako. Minsan ba naisip mo...ang Pilipinas?" she asked me and I look at her saka tumayo. Dinampot ko ang aking tasa saka tumayo malapit sa bintana. "I had a beautiful and peaceful life in Philippines before shits happened. Regardless of my bad experiences and situations I had during my stay there, it can never replaced my beautiful life in Philippines. But that country is not really for me, that's not my home." I said to her and stared at the scenery outside the window.

My heart is still hurting about my failed relationship with the man I loved next to my father. I had it bad sooner or later I'll realize why it happened to me. But for now, I am going to move myself on the things that are not part of my life anymore.

It's December now so it's a christmas season. The place is slowly covered with snow, I smiled sadly as I feel my heart slowly covered with coldness. I breathe hard.

"Winter season is a time for home. Gladly, we're home." I said to Chandra who is smiling at me. "Yeah. We can only feel comfort and warmth here." she agreed. Tumingin ako at pasado ala una na pala ng madaling araw kaya inubos ko na ang iniinom ko saka inayos ang papeles na nagkalat at pinatay ang laptop ko.

"Chandra, matulog na tayo." aya ko sa kaniya saka humikab pa ako at tumango naman siya. Maliwanag pa rin ang buong kabahayan pero kami na lamang ni Chandra ang gising ngayon. Nagkahiwalay kami ni Chandra ng daanan papunta sa kwarto namin.

My room is connected with Gianna's room so I entered on it and saw my daughter sleeping peacefully on her bed with Nanay Aida on her side. Lumapit ako sa bata at hinalikan ang kaniyang noo gumalaw pa ang bata saka nagulat ako nung nagmulat ito ng mga mata niya.

Her beautiful almond eyes that always stare at me with a love in her eyes. "Good morning, sweetheart." I whispered to her and she giggled. She's a three months old baby then suddenly she started to cry maski si Nanay Aida ay napabalikwas sa hinihigaan.

"Nanay, ako na po ang bahala sa kaniya." I said to her kaya bumalik ulit ito sa pagtulog. I carefully carried her in my arms as I make a milk for her. I bought breast milk for her from a trusted institution here in London. I sat down on my sofa while holding her feeding bottle and watching her drink her milk. "I love you, baby." I emotionally said to her.

Gianna became my constant sunshine. She became my light inside my dark world. I stared lovingly at her small and cute face. "I will protect you at all cost, baby." I whispered to her. When she stop drinking her milk, she fell asleep. Kinuha ko 'yung mga unan niya sa kwarto niya at inilipat sa kama ko dahil gusto kong magkatabi kami na matutulog.

Sa kalagitnaan nang kasarapan ng tulog ko nagising ako sa palahaw na iyak ni Gianna kaya kahit inaantok ako ay agad ko siyang inasikaso. Tumingin ako sa wall clock at alas sais pa pala ng umaga. "Anong problema ng anak ko?" I asked her and she's still crying.

Stupid, Giovanna. Kapag 'to sumagot tumakbo ka na lang.

I check her diaper and she has a poop. "Ay may poop pala ang baby girl ko, o sige sandali lang ha? Kukunin lang ni Mommy ang ipanglilinis ko sayo, anak." sabi ko at patakbong pumasok sa kwarto niya para kunin ang gamit nito.

Hindi pa siya tumatahan kaya medyo natataranta ako. "I got this." I said to myself at inasikaso siya hanggang sa tumahan na ito sa pagiyak. "Ayan you are done na!" I said to her and suddenly she smiled at me. That melts the ice in my heart.