Hold on || dreamnotfound

chapter thirty six

Dream's pov
tws: panic, eating behavior (graphic stuff)

I finally pressed the join call button after staring at it for a good three minutes and felt my chest tighten immediately. Anxiety messing with my head, my hands started shaking again.

"Big D! Oh my god it's been ages king," I heard Tommy's voice through the speakers of my computer. He sounded a lot different than the last time I talked to him and it made my heart twist painfully.

Why hadn't I been here for all of them? Tommy was like a little annoying brother but I never guessed I could be able to spend weeks, yeah months without talking to him once.

"Hey for real though. Are you okay? You don't need to answer immediately take your time but- I was so worried and this bitch Sapnap wouldn't tell me what's up," he almost whispered, tears starting to flow down my cheeks.

"I'm so sorry, Tommy" was all I managed to say, the panic tightening it's grip around my throat. "No! No king no! Don't apologize, please," he quickly assured but I was struggling to keep my tears from falling.

"Dream... it's fine you know? Everyone needs a break and I really don't mind if I never know what happened. Just tell me if there's something I can do. I will fly over, quite literally! I mean I probably won't because, my mum, you know. But you know I would," he began rambling on about wether he would technically be able to visit me or not until I finally managed to speak up again.

"Toms it's fine. I've been struggling a lot recently and I don't think it's a secret at this point. And believe me kid, you're already doing enough by not being mad," I whispered, Sapnap giving me a reassuring nod while George squeezed my hand tightly.

"Why would I be mad? It's fine king! I hope you're doing better and that you don't have too much sex with Gogy..." he laughed loudly and the three of us joined almost instantly.

"I can't imagine how hard this must be for Sapnap... he probably sleeps with one eye open at night," the stupid kid continued until we were struggling to catch our breaths.

"Finally someone that understands. Thanks Tommy," Sap complained before bursting out laughing again.

We continued joking around, Tommy ending up showing me what he had done to most of the smp, which was basically blowing everything up that existed before he joined.

It was around half an hour later, when Quackity joined the call as well.

"Ayyyy Dream it's been a while," he giggled, his mic being terrible, as his face suddenly appeared on the screen.

"What the fuck big Q are you driving?" Tommy screamed, another fit of laughter filling the call. "Okay but seriously Quackity what the hell are you doing?" George asked, clearly concerned about the boy sitting in a car while talking to us.

"Driving to your mums house," he dryly said before turning off the camera again. "Come on Jorge... my eyes are on the road and otherwise I would be listening to music," he assured and if I was being honest, he did have a point there.

"So... how's it going?" He asked, his voice a little more serious than before. I knew he was worried and it broke my heart that I wasn't able to tell all of them just yet.

Because a part in me was still doubting they wouldn't find it weird. What if they ended up hating me? What if they wouldn't talk to me again?

I wouldn't be able to handle my favorite people leaving me.

You know they will

No. Not yet. As long as I wouldn't tell them, it would be fine. I just had to keep my mouth shut and everything would be alright.