I was reading a old book I got from the library when my mom walked through the door. "Hello baby" she said walking over to me and kissing my head. "Hi mom" I said and she smiled. "I can't be here for long but I brought you something" she said pulling a stack of letters from her purse.
I didn't need to ask who they were from because I could recognize that handwriting anywhere. "I sorted them by the dates on the envelopes, I think it'll be good if you read them az" she said handing me the letters and kissing my head before walking out the door.
My heart hurts because I wish I could read them when she originally gave them to me.
Sometime before it all fell apart
I was walking to third period when my girlfriend happily walked up to me. "Hi baby" she said happily before pecking my lips. "Hi my love" I said kissing her again, "here, I wrote this while Mr Davis gave his boring lecture about some war" she said and I laughed softly. I took the letter from her hand and shoved it into my back pocket. "Why don't you write me one?" She asked and I just shrugged making her smile fade from her face.
I tended to make her smile fade a lot and that hurt me. I grabbed the first letter and read it while I waited for group share to start. "Aziz would you like to share what you're reading?" The counselor for today asked and I nodded slowly.
"Dear my beautiful Aziz. I'm sorry I have to leave you here. I'm sorry I have to leave you where you are unhappy but as I sit here and wait for your mom to check you in, I feel comfortable because I rather leave you here then in that bathroom floor. I love you so much Aziz, I have forgiven it all and gave you a million chances and a part of me would give you a million more but I don't think I'll ever be able to give you one more chance. All the things I did to call you mine Aziz. All I did to say the
boy with the most beautiful eyes was mine. Maybe sometime else our stars can align and you can paint me any color other then Grey"I finished reading my letter and clenched it lightly in my hands. "I wish I could take it all back but I'm stuck here and I can't do anything about it" I said in defeat. "That's not entirely true" a girl said from across the room and I looked at her in confusion. "You can write her one back" she said and I sighed lightly. She was right.
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Fade Away
Romance"I watched you fade away like the stars when the sun comes up" TW: this book talks about drug addiction and drugs so please read with caution.