i had a panic attack for the first time in a long time today when i realized how much of my life i've missed because of you. the school activities i've banned myself from attending because i know you'll be there, and no space between four walls will be far enough from you.
i often think about how you stole my address, and if you wanted you could show up at my house. i don't feel safe knowing that and i'm ready to leave the city.
my friend told me your his english partner and it took me aback, i felt betrayed though he doesn't know my connection to you. and by some evil twist of fate you showed up outside my class—even though you know you're not allowed within fifty feet of me on school grounds. and when i couldn't breath—because of course your presence steals my breath, throttles my heart, and i lose my balance—i was out of methods to cope. i don't want to be like this anymore, i was doing so well.
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the night the stars fell - poetry collection
PoetryPLEASE READ THE CONTENT WARNINGS this poetry collection includes themes and descriptions of: sexual violence/assault/harassment PTSD hallucinations depression anxiety self harm disordered eating in my experience feeling seen through works of writ...
