Till Death || Loki

Chapter 31

Barnes must have thanked me a million times while he was crying. Seeing him so vulnerable made myself almost. And I ended up not putting another spell in his head that would kill him in a few days, like I originally planned. He seems like he's worth a second chance.

Before I left, I gave him my phone number and told him to call if he experienced anything strange, like headaches or hallucinations, but it's pretty unlikely.

Now I'm back to my place, alone again. I check the mail in case there is something interesting in there, like a note from Loki saying that he came back but didn't find me, so he's going to wait for me somewhere specific. It might be because I've been reading too many books lately. Unfortunately, there isn't any sign from him yet.

"It's been three months... Where the fuck are you?" I whisper.

Let's see who's keeping him occupied.

I grab one of my bowls, throw in some ingredients for a spell and a hair of his I had picked up from his pillow once. I decided to keep it in case of an emergency. It sounds weird but it did come handy, didn't it? I know I'm getting all pity right now but I don't care. He said he'll be back and he isn't. Maybe he didn't dump me again. What if he's in danger?

I also add some things for protection so he wouldn't sense me. I tell the words of the spell and there I see him...

On another planet, Sakaar, having drinks and laughing with other people.
He lied, again! I smack the table and I accidentally knock the bowl with the ingredients down.

Fuck! I end the spell and now I have to clean.

He probably got me, he saw me. Maybe that's a good thing, maybe that'll make him come down here and explain himself. I'll kill him!
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As I wake up the following day, I look at the empty pillow next to me. But I sense someone lingering outside my door. I walk there and I take a look.
Barnes?

I swing the door open taking his attention.
"Oh hi. Good morning" he says

"Good morning... What are you doing here?" I ask

"It's only been three days since you did your thing in my head and I... I don't know what to do. What am I supposed to do now?" he asks

"Why are you asking me?" I wonder

"I... I don't know, I'm confused. I'm sorry. I'll just go" he starts to walk away

"Wait, come in" I finally say. I can't believe I'm doing this. I close the door behind him and I go to the kitchen.
"Nice hair cut, by the way" I mention in my attempt to break the ice. He smiles and nods. Cute. It seems like he's trying to rip the Winter Soldier away from himself.

I pour both of us a drink and he notices the empty liquor bottles as I walk to the living room.
"Rough night?" he asks as I hand him his glass

"Not really. More like complicated months" I answer as I sit besides him and I take a sip of my drink

"Is it my fault?" he thinks

"No, not at all. It's my... I don't even know what he is at this point. I was just really pissed at him yesterday" I explain.

He chuckles
"I remember those times..." he admits

"How long has it been?" I ask

"About 75 years. But I was frozen for most of it so I guess it doesn't count" he answers and takes a sip of his drink.

"You know, I have a friend that I could set you up with" I suggest and he chuckles

"You really think that's a good time for it?" he asks

"Her name is Natasha. I think you'll like each other" I answer

"The Black Widow? I hate to say it but I tried to kill her too" he remembers

"Yeah... It seems to be our type lately... But similar trauma can make you understand and even help each other" I explain. He nods and keeps his eyes down.
"I don't want to pressure you to do that, but I want you to do me a favor. You said you don't know what to do, so I say put the work in and get better. Talk to someone a physiatrist, a friend, whatever" I insist

"I will" he promises and I smile.

Then I get distracted. Something magic is trying to get in. Or someone.

"What is it?" Barnes asks

"Kiss me" I demand as I take my shirt off. I mess my hair as I climb on his lap and, surprisingly, he doesn't hesitate to kiss me.

I hear someone clear their throat behind me, but I don't pull away immediately.
"Can I help you?" I ask, without looking back

"What are you doing?" Loki asks.
God, I missed his voice.

"What does it look like?" I reply

"It looks like you're..."

"Having sex, do you mind?" Barnes completes his sentence

"No one spoke to you!" Loki raises his voice

"No one asked you to come. I got tired of waiting for you" I say

"Then why did you spy on me earlier?" he questions

"To make sure you're not dead. How was the party? Oh wait, you're still there, right? This is just your illusion" I confront him

"Yes, I can't leave Sakaar at the moment. I promised I'd be back" he reminds me

"It's been three months, Loki. And if you were so busy, you could have send this illusion to tell me that sooner" I argue

"It's only been a week... Time passes different on other realms" he states.

I sigh and I get off Bucky's lap
"You can go. I'll get you in touch with Nat" I whisper the last part to him.

As soon as the door shuts, he looks at me angry.
"Are jealous because he was here and he could touch my body, kiss my lips, fuck my tight and wet..."

"Don't..." he warns me

"While you're here as an illusion that can't touch or be touched?" I tease him

"Oh I promise, when I'm back I'm going to fuck you so hard that you won't be able to walk for a month" he replies

"Mm..." I bite my lip

"Because I am the only one who can make your eyes glow while I take you. And don't even dare to lie to me and say that Barnes did. You're mine" he gets possessive and I love it. He's right, I'm his and I can't live without him. He knows it.

"When will you be back?" I ask, dropping the game

"As soon as I can. I'm trying to gain their trust and get away with my brother. I swear, I will be back" he answers

"Ok" I nod.

"I love you, Katelyn" he says out of nowhere

"I love you too, Loki" I reply and we both smile. He disappeares again...