Read to me ~ Xingyun

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Chongyun POV:

I lay in bed next to Xingqiu, it was 4am and he had fallen asleep with his head laying on my chest, he looked so peaceful in this state, I just wanted to run my hands through his hair and hold him in my arms forever,

Whilst he slept I continued reading my book, checking every so often that he was still asleep, the book taught me alot and some of it made me feel really sorry for Xingqiu, he was going through so much but still walked around with a smile all the time?! Not to mention his parents pretty much neglecting him of love and attention, no wonder he was so happy to have someone love him...

Then I started thinking...

We had both said we loved eachother...

We kiss all the time...

We cuddle at night...

But... were we dating? We never talked about labeling out relationship but after reading some of that book.. maybe it would be helpful for him? Or maybe it would scare him away... I... I don't know....

I put the book down and turned over so Xingqiu was in my arms,

He opened his eyes a little and looked at me,

"I-is it morning?" He whispered sleepily,

"No, go back to sleep." I responded softly,

"Oh.. ok.. wait why are you awake?" He spoke, sitting up a little,

I pulled him back down and sighed,

"I couldn't sleep but I'm going to sleep now so you should too.." I whispered, stroking his hair,

"Yun yun... your hands are so soft..." he whispered,

My face turned red and I was thanking the archons that the lights were off and he couldn't see how much I was blushing,

"Heheh... now your heart is beating really fast." He giggled,

I started going even more red and shoved my face into his hair,

"Go to sleep." I whispered, trying to hide how flustered I was,

"I love you yun yun.." he whispered as he drifted off to sleep,

I took a breath to calm down,

"I love you too.." I whispered, allowing myself to fall asleep.

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Xingqiu POV:

I woke up at around 5:30am so I decided to get up and get ready for school, at least this way yun yun won't have to see me change,

Once I finished getting dressed and brushing my teeth I went over to the bed to see if Chongyun was awake, then I saw his bedside table drawer open,

Inside was that book he had hidden...

I knew it was bad to snoop around but the curiosity was killing me so I picked it up, expecting to see some sort of excorsist stuff,

But when I saw what it was my heart dropped.

'Depression in teenage boys'

I put the book down and closed the drawer, fighting back tears,

I knew I shouldn't have told him, now he's going to try and fix me or even worse, he is going to read something gross in the book and then leave me... or he's going to...

I was half tempted to get rid of the book but then he would know I had seen it.

I stumbled into the corner and curled up into a safe position, I don't know why my body was trying to get me to defend myself, it was like the situation with the bullies back in 7th grade, except it was just a book, a stupid book.

He's going to leave you

At this point I really wanted Chongyun to wake up but at the same time I was desperate for him to stay asleep,

I needed comfort, I needed him to tell me he saw me for me, I needed him to say all the right things.

But he had to stay asleep,

He couldn't know I had seen the book, he would feel bad, I don't want to make him feel bad ever.

Amd then he woke up,

Well I wasn't 100% sure of how long he had been watching me huddled up in the corner, crying like a toddler but he came over to me and crouched down in front of me,

"Xingqiu? What's the matter?" He whispered, placing a hand on my head,

"I- I'm sorry- I didnt- I just saw- and now you-" I couldn't get the words out,

"It's ok, take a breath, just try to focus on breathing for now, you can tell me in a minute." He spoke, stroking my hair,

He really was saying all the right things, but I didn't know how long that would last,

After a few minutes, my breathing was stable again and my tears were minimal,

"So, wanna tell me why you're having a breakdown at 6am?" He asked,

"I just... Well I woke up early and... the drawer was open... that book..." I trailed off, burying my head in my knees,

"Oh.. you saw the book huh? Well I know this probably means nothing to you but just because I know you have depression doesn't change the way I see you.. I mean your still you and nothing can change that. The only reason I got the book was because I wanted to be able to help you and understand depression a little more.." He said,

I looked up at him and I smiled, wiping the remains of my tears away,

"and the only reason I hid the book was because I knew you could easily overthink about it and... Well this could happen... I guess I wasn't very smart about that part.." he laughed kind of nervously,

"Thankyou so much, yun yun.." I whispered, tackling him into a hug,

"I'm doing the bare minimum for you Xingqiu, you don't have to thank me for that!" He laughed,

"You're so much more than the bare minimum..." I whispered, before standing up and helping the other boy up aswell,

"Now get dressed!" I commanded,

"Yes master." He joked, walking over to his closet,

I went and sat on the bed, looking at him as he picked out clothes and then pulled off his top,

He had such a beautiful figure..

He pulled on his clothes and turned to look at me, I jumped before darting my eyes in the opposite direction,

"Were you watching me change Xingqiu?" He asked, smiling slyly,

"I- uh- no I just-" I stuttered,

"It's ok, I won't judge you, I just didn't expect you to thats all." He laughed,

"Your funny, yun yun. Go brush your teeth!" I pouted,

He laughed to himself again before walking off,

I fell backwards and looked at the celing, waiting for him to return,

We went to school and went about our usual day, it was crazy how Bennett and Razor were dating now, it got me thinking about how it would feel to date Chongyun,

We both love eachother and we act like we are dating already so I don't see the harm in labeling it... but then again I don't want anything to change...

I decided I would talk to him about it tonight,

maybe he would feel the same...