Painful Smiles

chapter 15 redone

I hope you enjoy. This is the song that will be played in the chapter today^! If you would like you can listen to this song too. Also there was a time skip between the last chapter and this chapter!
Enjoy!!

Quick update: after I publish it I realized that the video isnt there anymore :/ so here is the spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/track/32V5fBS9jewKqQKj2UYdiI?si=SO3mTroDSpuZHMll6i2cYg&utm_source=copy-link

"Alright now!! Let's all sing a song!! Anyone have any suggestions?" I asked while everyone was sitting around the fire, Daniel on one side of me and Max on the other. When no one responded I chirped, "Alright, I guess I have to choose a song." I pulled out my phone smiling at the song I choose. Asthma Attack, by NOAHFINNCE began to play. I began to quietly sing along with the song, cooking s'mores for the campers. (Song is in italics for those who are confused for where the song is)

"I am, the physical embodiment of,
Everything I never wanted to be
People must think this kid's fucking crazy
I am the prime example of indecision
Life hit me like a head on collision
But what am I supposed to do
When I'm so see-through?
I had never thought that life would
Would be like this
And now I'm thinking that maybe I should (maybe I should)
Maybe give life a miss
And if living was the equivalent of breathing
Then maybe I should (maybe I should)
Prepare myself for a
Another asthma attack
Don't ask me all these bloody questions, I'll get arsey
You think I know myself, well you'd be mostly wrong
It's taken way to long for me to sing my song
Old me is dead and gone
If lying was a crime, then I'd be doing time
I don't mean to whine, but just imagine having to lie to
Friends, foes, all of those people that should matter most
Living a double life is just as obvious as Pinocchio
I had never thought that life would
Would be like this
And now I'm thinking that maybe I should (maybe I should)
Maybe give life a miss
And if living was the equivalent to breathing
Then maybe I should (maybe I should) prepare myself for a
Another asthma attack
I had never thought that life would (i had never thought that life would)
Would be like this
And now I'm thinking that maybe I should (maybe I should)
Maybe give life a miss
And if living was the equivalent to breathing
Then maybe I should (maybe I should)
Maybe give life a miss
And if living was the equivalent to breathing
Then maybe I should (maybe I should)
Prepare myself for a
Another asthma attack."

Daniel looked at me, shock danced ok his eyes as he leaned over to my ear and gently whispered, "You never told me you could sing~" shivers shot down my spine as I gently whispered back as I replied, feeling his breath fan my ear and the side of my face. "I'm not that good at it so I dont sing often" "LIAR!!" Max exclaimed hearing the conversation between me and Daniel. By now everyone was enjoying the s'mores that I made for them. Conversation began while Max stole my phone and turned on some background lofi music. Gwen gently walked over to me, s'more in hand, she bent over and whispered, "you have a very nice voice David, you should sing more." I smiled gently at her. Finally starting to feel like I belong somewhere. I knew this feeling wouldn't last long. I didn't expect it to end so soon though.

Cliffhanger!! Anyway I hope you enjoyed this new chapter (I'm sorry if the video doesnt load for you, just let me know and I will update this with the spotify link to the song) have a good day/night! Take care of yourself. Bye!!!!

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