I hate myself, Techno

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(Angst)




I hated everything about me. Every freckle, each scar, both eyes, all my fingers, everything. I want to get a new me. Everyone else looks beautiful. Me? Hahaha, no. 

I want to a new me. 

A new me.

One that isn't ugly. One that isn't fat, or have multiple scars. I want a new me with a pretty face and pretty body like everyone else. Why can't I be like them? What happened to me to haft to deserve this ugly body? I've tried to get rid of my ugliness before, but then my fiends yelled at me. And it didn't work. Actually, I've tried alot of time, and none worked. And some resulted in me getting yelled at. That made me upset, and sad. I don't like getting yelled out, and I don't like seeing, my friends mad or sad. That makes me sad.

Maybe this is why I'm forced to live this this body. 

Because I'm a bad friend. I let my friends be mad and upset and sad. That is being a bad friend. And bad people should be punished, according to my parents and my other 'friends.'

I hate myself. 

I'm fat and ugly and stupid. 

I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die. 

Hahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahaahhahaahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahah.

What use is it to just say that? Right? 

It's useless to just SAY IT. 

I COULD DO IT. 

That's a GREAT idea!

I get up and go towards the kitchen. I grab a knife. It was sharp and beautiful. It's gray an dhas sort of a shine to it. 

It was perfect. 

I hear footsteps and freeze, not exspecting anyone to be up at this time. I couldn't of woken anyone up. I was so quiet, and no one sleeps in the same room as me. I look over to the entrance of the kitchen. 

"Dream?....." Techno yawned, not exspecting me to be up, and not noticing the knife yet. "What are you doing up at this time?"

I his eyes wander towards the knife and he freezes. He knows that I used to hurt myself, but "stopped."

"Dream. Put the knife down..." He says, stepping closer to me. 

"G-get away, Techno." I say. "I-I'll do it if y-you get closer!"

I start to cry. I didn't want him to be here when I killed myself. 

"Dream, you wouldn't, right?" He asks. 

I say nothing and stare him in the eyes.

"Right?" He asks, kinda demanding for an answer. 

I still say nothing. 

"Why, Dream?!" Techno asks, panicking. I knew he was trying to stall, trying to make me stop. I didn't care. I had made up my mind, once and for all. I guess I COULD tell him why. 

"I hate myself, Techno." I sob. 

I bring the knife to my chest, and solfy smile at him. 

"DREAM! Think of Tubbo and Tommy, they see you as their brother! Think of Phil or Puffy! Think of all your friends, like Wilbur, think of me!" He pleds, and steps closer.

I push the knife into my chest. A red liquid spills form the wound, it hurts and I fall to the ground. Techno runs over, crying. 

"P-pleaze, Dream.....I love you...." He says, tears running down his face.

"I do too...." I say, as my breathing slows down and my eyelids start to fall. 

POV: 3rd person 

Techno brings Dream to his chest, knowing that Dream is going to die, no matter what he does. Dreams chest stops moving. Techno checks his pluse.....

It was gone. 

Dream, his beloved, was dead. 

"FUCK!" Techno crys, waking up the others in the house.

Phil, Tommy, and Wilbur run in to see what happen, knowing that it must the bad if Techno cursed. 

"Techno?! What happened-" Phil says, stopping as he sees Technos shoulders shaking, saying that he was crying. A bloody knife was on the floor, surrounded by a puddle of blood. 

They rush over to him.

"D-dreams dead!" He crys. 

Techno makes it where they can see his face. Dreams eyes were dull, and he had a sold smile on his face, with dried tears running down his cheeks. 

Everyone else also starts to cry along with Techno, saddened. 











Would they ever get over this awful thing that happened?.....










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Sorry for not posting yesterday 😔 

But this chapter was longggggg.

Anyway, have a nice day, and please do NOT do what this thing was, remember that you are loved and you are amazing and beautiful!! Love you guys!!! And thanks for the support, we're already at 1.5k! 0:

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