Torn in Two (Elite Girls 2)

Chapter 46 - Chances

CHAPTER 46

CHANCES

Iris' POV

Never in my life have I ever thought there will come a day that Dashiell will break up with me.

But everything happened because of my lies and secrets. Now all I could just do is cry and face the consequences of my actions.

Sinubukan kong makipagayos sa kanya. I called numerous times and even left messages on his phone and social media accounts, but he never once replied. Mas malala pa ngayon kumpara nung humingi siya ng space dahil kahit sa campus, hindi niya na ako tinitingnan.

It's like I don't exist anymore. He's acting as if I had never been part of his life.

It hurts like sh*t. I couldn't function well. I skipped a whole week of class because I was afraid to bump into him. Baka bigla na lang kasi ako umiyak kapag nakita ko siya at nilagpasan niya lang ako. I know people are already starting to notice that Dash and I have been distant with each other lately. May mga kaklase na nga akong nagtatanong kung bakit parang hindi nila kami nakikita ni Dash na magkasama.

If they see me crying, that would only answer all their questions.

Coincidentally, both my parents and Ate Irene are in Singapore right now. Isang linggo na rin sila doon kaya naman nagawa kong magkulong sa kuwarto na walang nangingielam sa'kin. I stayed in bed all day and all night. Halos hindi nga ako makakain ng maayos. Nilalantakan ko lang lahat ng chocolates na meron kami habang umiiyak at nanunuod ng TV.

"Madame, hindi po ba kayo kakain? Pinagluto ho kayo ni Manang ng mga ulam na paborito niyo," nagaalalang sambit ni Camille.

I just hugged my pillow and turned the TV volume up. I heard her sigh and walked out of the room. Ganito kaming dalawa palagi nitong mga nakaraang araw. There is nothing she can do to lift my mood up.

I'm a mess without Dashiell. Ngayon ko lang napagtanto na sobrang laking parte niya na pala sa buhay ko. 

I feel like there's a huge rock inside of me, preventing me to breathe properly.

"What the hell happened to you?" gulat na gulat na tanong ni Caylee nang bigla na lang sila nagpunta dito sa bahay. Halata ang pagaalala sa mga mukha ng mga kaibigan kong babae. Hindi na rin kasi ako nakakasagot sa mga text nila kaya siguro dinalaw na nila ako.

"Girl, ang gulo ng kuwarto mo!" Tiffany pointed out.

I wanted to tell them what happened but I know they'll side with Dash. Kasi ako naman talaga ang may kasalanan ng lahat. Ayokong marinig sa kanila na nagkamali ako dahil alam ko na sa sarili kong mali nga ang mga nagawa ko. At dahil don, humatong kami sa hiwalayan ng boyfriend ko.

I told my friends some of the issues but not really the exact reason why Dash ended our relationship. Sinabi ko lang nakipag-break sa akin si Dash at wala na akong magawa pa.

They stayed for a few hours and somehow, that helped me a lot. Kahit saglit ay na-distract nila ako at gumaan ang loob ko dahil sa pagko-comfort nila. But they have to go home because they still have classes tomorrow.