My Sister's Fiance

Chapter Forty Five -- The in between

1 month later. . .

I was sitting in the balcony while looking at Jeremy's nephew running wildly around the yard. I smiled imaging what our son would look like, would he look after Jeremy or me? I would like him to look like his father. .i would love to have a child..a daughter would also be good, someone that resemble me so much so that Jeremy can dote and pamper her.

I heaved a huge sigh. I've been in and out of hospital trying to desperately find a cure. My disease is one in a million that has formed over time, I was battered and my body had finally shown its weakness despite ahowing a brave front all those years and it make me question why.

Why now?

Why now when I have something more to live for?

Why now, when He is already back?

Why now when I no longer long for death and mercy?

Why me? Why not that bastard scum be subjected to the same misery for all the cruelty he did over to me and to others?

Why?

Why was it so damn me!??

Why was the world so unfair?

How long can I live? How long should I suffer? Haven't I suffered enough?

But at the end of the day, despite these, I am thankful for the opportunity that we had. At least the good thing is, after going to and fro the hospital my sister finally come to see me. Crying.

I don't know who told her what happened or how it happened but Im pretty much sure that my so called best friend AKA Alex is the culprit for my sister's sudden arrival.

I have a mix feeling about it actually. I never wanted her to feel the responsibility that triggers this disease. I also dont want to make her feel that she was the reason behind this, after all. It was my choices that lead me here.

I also dont, want to let her see me in this weakened state. I was used to be her pillar and strength, I for the sake of her, cannot let go of this fight.

"Hi. ." Emily beamed at me, she's smiling but deep down I can feel her remorse. I know too well how guilty she might have felt.

"Hi. ." I smiled too thou my voice was a bit course and soft.

"Sooo. ..what do you want to do?" She asked enthusiastically that I cnnot help but smile again.

"I want to go to japan. See the Sakura. . ."

"Hmmmm. I also like to go to the beach. .or maybe just maybe even to the front yard!!" I teased. I was overly sheltered to the point of paranoia that even going to CR I was greatly supervised. Sigh. I really feel like an invalid. I can't even be overly exposed. Thus even going beyond the family gate is almost a leisure.

"Hahahaha..." She giggled. She's a capable baby sitter but Jeremy is a worst nurse! She knew all the restrictions were done by and explecitly arranged by him! "You should get well soon. .if you really want to travel and have some leisure. You should. After all. Im looking forward having my niece or nephew!"

I giggled. I really don't know. Except with our wedding night. Jeremy rarely tries to get intimate, afraid that he'd crushed me. I don't know. I'm both frustrated and annoyed beyond words by that. Hmmmp.
Having a child? Maybe in the next 100 years!! That is if I'm gonna live past that.

I was going to chuckle again when I suddenly feel an immensed pain from my legs and swiftly traveling my body.

"Aaaahhh!!!" I suddenly exclaim as the sudden burst of pain overwhelm me.

"Ate!"

The last thing I saw is Emily's worried face before darkness consume me.

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