Annoyingkoji!!

SS: I Fell in love with the weirdo

Have you ever put in to a situation when you were best at something but later on you realize that you were just....good?

You were just good but not the best.

You were simply a frog in the well.

At the very young age, i consider myself as someone who was gifted.

Praises were given to me, especially coming from my parents.

It was the best feeling i got, it was addicting.

It was my motivation to get better, to improve myself to everyone that i was at the top.

They were proud of me, everyone was praising me and cheering for me.

I thought i was the best and i could simply beat everyone when i just improved myself.

However when i reached junior highschool......that thought becomes a joke.

I want to laugh at myself.

I felt like a clown by considering myself as someone superior.

In each competition i joined i rank second then third or fourth.

I was 2nd in the beauty contest, someone was much more beautiful than me.

I was 3rd in quiz bee, someone was much smarter than me.

I was placed 4th in track and field, someone was much faster than me.

I wasn't....in the spotlight anymore.

So where do i belong?

I felt like i wasn't important anymore, a mere background character.

No one wants that.

No one cares who comes in second place or the others, everyone only cares with the winner,with the first place.

Everyone only cares with the results, not the process.

Even though my parents congratulate me, i take it as they were consoling me for my loss, they weren't that enthusiastic anymore.

My classmates who used to praise me back then was hanging out with the winner and singing praises to her.

No matter how much i improve, i cannot beat them. I was at my limit.

So i changed my approach, instead of being the best in academics, being the most athletic.

I will be the one who was most trusted.

I started being friendly to everyone, helping the others when they ask for my help, putting them first before mine.

Along the way, i gained their trust that they casually reveal their secrets, even the one's they hidden their entire life and swear not to tell anyone.

Human beings are timid creatures by nature, they tend to hide things that are painful or unpleasant to them, and confessing it requires a great deal of mental strength.

'I actually have a crush with...

' Did you know he comes from a poor family...

'We were just actually pretending to be a couple...

'i have a picture of him on my wall...

'Please help me Kushida-chan'

'Kushida-san can you teach me this'

'Kushida-san thank you for this i really appreciate it'

'You're really the best Kushida-san! '

It was the same.