Alone again (byler)

Chapter 10

MIKE

"You saw that, right? He's lying to me. I mean to us. He's lying to us." My smile drops as we walk away from Will's house.

"Maybe he has a good reason. " Lucas attempts to abate the conversation.

"Good reason? Good reason my ass. Will never lies to me. Ever. I say tomorrow we should bring it up and push further ;try to get him to explain so we can help him." I argue.

"Mike, I think we should just back off. This isn't a good idea. This could end bad. We've barely even had contact with him in California and with Vecna and the gates I just don't think this is the smartest idea. " Dustin continues.

"So you're saying the things said yesterday are  just okay and we should just forget about it?"

"You're putting words in my mouth, mouth. I never said that." Dustin contends.

"No I'm pretty sure that's just what you're saying." I retort.

"Mike, I think what Dustin is trying to say is that we need to be there for Will. So that he can be comfortable enough to come to us. We can't just force him to tell us whatever it is he's been going through." Lucas calmly explains.

To a normal person what Lucas is saying would make logical sense yet to my sizzling stupid brain it's gibberish. It's useless.

I don't give a fuck about Will's privacy or Will's need for some solitude or distance. My mind is being overrun by one thought  and one thought only.

"I'm losing him." I burst out.

"What?" Dustin asks.

"I'm losing Will and I can't. I can't let that happen. I won't let it happen." I continue in unease.

I'm in risky territory now.

I don't like to talk about what goes on in my head. I'm afraid. I'm afraid I'll slip up. I'll slip up and say something stupid like I always do.

They'll figure me out.

"You're not losing him Mike. Sure, he might be a bit more distant but that's because of what he is going through: not because of you. You're still best friends." Lucas states

Best friends.

Best fucking friends.

Best friends.

I don't know I feel like I might of lost you or something.

I have no idea what's going to happen next.

But, whatever it is I think we should work together.

I think it would be easier if we were a team.

Friends.

Best friends.

"You don't understand, Lucas. You weren't there in California. I thought I could just fix it. But, I didn't. I didn't fix shit."

"Hey calm-down it's okay. What didn't you fix?" Lucas consoles.

"Us. Shit, I mean me and Will. I've been so...." I pause.

Confused.

I've been so fucking confused.

But, I can't tell them that. I can't tell them about the stupid thoughts that have been severed through mind because they wouldn't understand. No one would.

It's not normal.

"You know what? That's not the point. The point is that Will is in trouble. Danger. You said it yourself. Vecna's curse. As his friends its our duty to be there for hom even if he doesn't want us there." I continue.