Fangs of a Half-Blood

22 | Hecate, The Witch

Do I really deserve this?

It is my nth time asking the crescent moon gleaming beyond the clouds. Until now, I am overwhelmed of everything happened to me after the night I discovered who truly am. Sa mga oras na 'to, nandito ako ngayon sa likuran ng bahay kung saan nakalagay ang sinasabi ni Lola na nakatadhana sa akin.

Everyone called it, The Alpha's Lair. In short, ang peg niya ay parang palasyo. A nonchalant smile impetuously plastered upon my lips when I heard everyone's laughter. I give myself time to stay away from a crowd for a moment.

A soft breeze brushed against my skin. The moment the wind passed by, the branches of trees are creaking. It was followed by a leaves rustle. Sa kalagitnaan ng gabi, rinig na rinig ko ang ingay ng mga insekto. Few meters away from me, I could hear the sound of water stream.

Nature is indeed beautiful. At dahil sa kaniya, kahit papaano ay kumalma ako. Nagpakawala ako ng malalim na buntonghininga bago tumingin sa kalangitan. The moon still gleaming. Stars are stupendously scattered in the sky. Few of them are flickering blissfully.

"How long are you gonna stare the night sky?" Napalingon ako sa aking likuran nang marinig ko ang boses ni Lupus.

His disheveled stormy hair greeted my eyes. May isang butil pa ng pawis ang napansin ko sa kaniyang noo. Ibinalik ko ang aking tingin sa kalangitan nang umupo siya sa aking tabi. Nakita ko siyang ginawa rin niya ang ginawa ko.

"It's sinfully beautiful, isn't it?" Instead of responding him with words, I only nodded. "What's in your mind, Kai?" Nabaling ang aking mata nang magtanong siya sa akin. My eyes fell directly upon the ground.

A heavy sigh escaped from my lips. "I am overwhelmed, Lupus," I sparingly answered. His forehead furrowed. And his eyes asked me to elaborate. "Pakiramdam ko parang pinagbagsakan ako ng langit at lupa. Ever since I found out I am a hybrid, I felt like I am nobody even to myself. It felt like my normal life turned upside down," I added.

Tumatango-tango si Lupus habang nakikinig sa mga sinabi ko.

"The witches even considered me the abomination of nature. A creature who had the ability to tear the world apart. I was told my sacrifice worth more than my life." Nagpakawala muli ako ng malalim na buntonghininga. "It made me think that they were right. Alam mo 'yong pakiramdam na sa wakas nalaman mo na ang totoong ikaw. Pero ang sayang 'yon ay bigla-bigla na lamang nawala nang parang bula."

Tumikhim ako nang biglang bumiyak ang boses ko. Halos mawalan ako ng hininga dahil tila ba'y may bumara sa lalamunan ko. Sobrang sikip din ng dibdib ko dahil sa halo-halong emosyon.

I am happy to finally be with my family. My pack. To finally know who I am. But after what I did to Ry the other day when I lost control of myself, tila ba'y naniwala na ako sa mga sinabi ng mga witches. It feels like my existence is to wreak havoc. To destroy everything.

Or worse, to hurt the people I love.

"And now, sabay-sabay pang nagsibagsakan ang mga responsibilidad sa mga balikat ko. I don't know if I deserved it. Hindi ko alam kung magagampanan ko ba sila lahat."

Napatingin ako kay Lupus nang idantay niya ang kaniyang kamay sa kaliwang balikat ko. Kasunod niyang hinawakan ang magkabilang pisngi ko. He then stare straight to my eyes.

"First of all, huwag mong pakinggan ang mga witches. If things go wrong, the Crescents will be here to protect you. You deserved it, Kai. And it's not even questionable," puno ng kasiguraduhang saad niya. "There's always a loophole in everything that witches believed, Kai. Some of them have been known to work against the Balance of Nature. And use their power for their personal gain," he added.