STARS IN THE NIGHT SKY (Model Series #2)

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"You got an email na?" 

"Hmm," sagot ko. "Ikaw?"

"Same,"

It's been a year and a months. "I want my gown to be fit though, para maganda ako lalo tignan. I also want it to be bold,"

"Yes, ma'am," sagot ng designer.

"How about you?" tanong ko kay Andrea sa tabi ko.

"I just want a gown that will fit on me, sa skin ko and i want to look like a goddess came out from a book,"

"Okay ma'am, i'll send the designs after i draw it and you can suggest any styles you want,"

"Thank you for being considerate but we'll go with your designs, if ever i wanna change something i'll let you know immediately,"

"Sure, just give me a call,"

I smile, "I will,"

Nang makaalis na 'yung designer ay nagsalita si Andrea, "Who's your partner?" tanong niya.

"Well honestly," napabuntong hininga ako dahil sa tanong niya. "Wala pa e, does it really required na may partner sa event natin?"

Tumango siya, "Hmm, how 'bout Cold? Do you ask him already?" tanong niya.

"Cold? I know you already know that we haven't keep in touch for a long time na! How can i ask him to be my date?" tanong ko.

Napakunot noo siya, "You don't chat him na?" 

Kumunot ang noo ko, "No, why would I?" masungit kong sagot sakanya.

Tinitigan niya ako ng matagal at hindi na nagsalita. Napailing nalang ako saka nagpaalam na doon muna ako sa room ko, I'm keeping a secret though.

In the past year and months I'm secretly writing songs, i already composed 10 songs, i really don't see myself composing songs but then...one day i just found myself composing songs because that's the only way i can express my emotions—my feelings since i am not a type of a person who can open up about my problem to anyone...kahit sa mga malalapit saakin.

I know I'm okay but i don't know why i feel empty.

I'm happy but i don't know why I'm still feels empty inside.

I don't know what's happening to me all of a sudden.

Napailing iling nalang ako saka inopen ang file kung saan ang mga songs ko, as much as possible i don't want anyone to hear me singing this songs. It's okay if i bash myself but if it's other people i don't know if i can take it.

I got an email...a lot of emails to be honest, offering me to be their Ambassadress, calvin klein, saint laurent, prada and so on. I actually don't know which should i take. I was even nominated as one of the IT GIRL because of my photos and because of my body shape and face. Well, if i can see myself from other peoples perspectives i will consider myself as it girl. I always shows skin, i always post sexy photos which is why they call me it girl but...but i'm just being me.

"Hey," sagot ko ng tumawag ang manager ko.

"The Saint Laurent really wants you to be their Ambassador, Channel secured Andrea so they cannot get her. I can tell that the YSL CEO really wants you big time! The CEO Ms. Francesca Bellettini personally went to me to talk about you. She really wants you to be the Ambassador, she doesn't stop calling and messaging me asking if you already decided and i told her i gave you time to think about it,"