why do you hate me?

13- Hungary

This chapter is written in Charles pov:

26.07.2022-05.08.2022

"Lilly, are you awake?" No answer.
We're still in the plane but it'll land in half an hour so here I am trying to wake her up but she clearly doesn't want to. To be honest I also don't want to wake her up. She looks so peacefully and calm when she sleeps. All the pain and angst she showed me yesterday are gone.
I brush her hair out of her face and take a quick picture of her snuggled up in her seat. She's breathing evenly, her chest rising and sinking with every breath she takes.
"God Lilly you are so gorgeous" I whisper and I can see a little smile form on her face.
"Ha, I knew you were awake and just pretended" She finally opens her eyes. How I love them. When you see Lilly from further away, you'd think they are dark green or brown but when you look closer at them, you'll realize they are the most beautiful green tone ever. They have little brown freckles, matching those on her nose.

"Why'd you have to wake me up? I was so comfortable" she groans before stretching her arms out and I sit back into my chair as well.

"we'll land soon" I tell her and she just nods and gets her phone out.

"The pictures on your Insta were beautiful by the way" She looks up at me.

"really? Do you think so?"

"Oui, ma belle. I wouldn't say it otherwise" She smiles at me and I can see her cheeks turning slightly red. "Aww is our future world champion blushing?" I mock her but she just laughs it off. I absolutely love to compliment her. I love the way she starts to smile and how her eyes seem to shine a bit brighter with every compliment she gets. Just the thought of it makes me glad that I promised her and myself to remind her everyday how beautiful she is, until she realizes it herself.

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"Alright Charlie what is it?"

I mentally roll my eyes at the nickname "Stop calling me that Pierre, you know I hate it"

"yeah apart from when Lilly says it. Then you get all Highschool crush like and smile like a fucking teenager. But seriously, what do you want to talk about"

We're currently sitting on the balcony of his hotel room, drinking some cocktails and talking about all sort of stuff.

"Exactly her" I answer him and he puts his glass down.

He turns his head to look over at me and slightly shakes his head.

"you can't just let her go, can you?"

I look to the ground. "No. I honestly don't think I can"

"It would be better you know that right? I'm not sure if you two are good for each other you just keep hurting her and she keeps hurting you, do you really think that this has a future?"

I look up at him again.
"Was she happier without me?" Pierre thinks about it for a second and then shakes his head.
"Honestly no she wasn't. Well I don't know about her before she started racing again but I've talked about it with Millane and she thinks that there's a spark in her eye whenever Lilly is with you or talks about you. But I think she hasn't been too well lately. I heard she broke up with Lewis"

"yeah she did" I nod, letting the words he spoke sink in. "Her eyes sparkle when she talks about me?" I ask again to make sure I understood him correctly.