The Way You Love Me (continued)

fasle hain fir bhi magar

Bondita started walking towards anirudh's room. as she reached infront the painting room the cloth  which used to hide that huge canvas came at her feet by air. Bondita went inside and turned on the light. The painting left her in shock. tears started falling from her eyes. she stepped back and ran to Anirudh's room. he was half drunk. Bondita held his wrist and pulled him after her. "kaha le jaa rahi hain aap mujhe aise? kiya hua?" Anirudh asked. Bondita took him in that room and threw him infront the canvas. "yeh kiya hain anirudh? meri painting?" Bondita asked in cracking tone.

"nehi yeh ush ladki ki painting hain jo mere khayalo mein rehti hain. jab bhi ankhe bandh karta hu usika hasta hua chehra samne ata hain. fact to yeh hain ki uski sakal apse milti hain. kitna strange hain na?" Anirudh said and laughed as he was drunk. Bondita didn’t understood what he actually ment? is that mean he didn’t forgotten her? it started raining havily. Anirudh immidately opened the door and started drenching. Bondita still didn’t knew what to say. She went after him.

"aap firse bheeg rahe hain? kiya pareshani hain apko? batayenge mujhe? Bondita asked getting irritated. "jaan nah hain apko? to suniye ! meri pareshani aap hain! aur mera dava bhi! main thak chuka hu dard sehte sehte aur main ishliye humesa barish mein beegta hu taki anirudh roy Chowdhury jo sabse strong hain  duniya ke liye woh bhi khulke rou sake." Anirudh said.

Bondita wondered. tears flowed from their  eyes with rain drops. clouds started colliding more.Bondita went near him. "aap kiya keh rahe hain main samajh nehi parahi hu" Bondita asked in cracking tone. Anirudh didn't replied he was Just drenching in rain spreading his arms. "jawab dijiye" Bondita said shaking him. Anirudh pinned her in wall. jawab chahiye to suniye. Anirudh said culching her arms.

"aap puch rahi thi na kis baat ka stress hain mujhe? kiyu itna smoke or alcohol pita hu? humesa kaam mein busy rehta hu? taki main apko bhul saku! mujhe kuch yaad nehi par apka chehra humesa yaad ata hain" Anirudh shout at her. Bondita got tears.

"main yaad nehi kaar pata tha aap kon hain. jab bhi ankhei bandh karta tha bas apka hasta hua chehra nazar ata tha. to main bas apki tasveer draw kar leta tha. yeh baat mein kisi ko samjha nehi pata tha. kiyuki mujhe samajh nehi ata tha kiyu or kon dikhti hain mujhe kiyu dikhti hain or yeh sari chisein mujhe chubti thi. saar dard karne lagta tha. fir bhi din raat bas apke bare mein sochta rehta tha. koi mera hain bhi nehi jisse apne dil ki baat keh saku. in sabkuch se bhagne liye alchohol aur smoke addicted hogaya. kaam mein khudko busy rakhta tha taki apko bhul saku! par dekho na main apse hi mil gaya. apse agar chidhta hu to sukoon bhi apke pash hone se ati hain ishliye jitna possible hua apko pash rakhne ki kosis karta hu" Anirudh said in crying tone. Bondita kept looking.

"main abhi bhi yaad nehi kar paraha hu kiya rista hain humara? kiyu aap itni apni lagti hain?" Anirudh asked. They kept looking into eyes. He about to kiss her but she pushed him.

"koi rista nehi hain humara...or nahi hosakta hain" Bondita said and started walking. Anirudh held her wrist and pulled her from behind that she got hited by his chest. Anirudh warpped his arms around her waist and brushed his lips with his shoulder. Bondita closed her eyes. Her heart was beating fast. "jhoot... koi to rista hain humara...mere pash ek tape recorder hain...ush mein jo ladki ki awaj ati hain....uski awaj bhi apse milti hain. please bataiye mujhe kiyu apke liye yeh sab feel hota hain? Anirudh asked.

Bondita didn't understood what to tell him. Anirudh moved her hair aside revealing her bare back and brushed his lips on the doris of her kameez and whispered " please bataiye". Bondita culched her dress.

please chodiye mujhe...aap nashe mein hain..." Bondita said breathing havily and turned towards him. But he pulled her more closer. Bondita was looking down. Anirudh held her jaw and made her look at him. "meri ankho mein dekhiye... nazre kiyu chura rahi hain..? please bataiye... mujhe... kiya hain yeh sab kiyu hain? kiyu koi dor mujhe apki taraf khichta hain?" Anirudh asked and about to kiss Bondita closed her eyes. But next moment she felt he got unconcious placing his head on her shoulder. Bondita took a deep breath and called the servants came and held him. "inka dhiyaan rakhna kahi bukhar na ajaye fir se" Bondita asked and left immidately while wipping her tears.